Mayuuri
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I'm just so incredibly pissed off.
November 27, 2025 at 4:52 AM
I'm just so incredibly pissed off.
I haven't seen irl or done vc with a friend this week at all. Today I was forced to go to class so I finally did, but felt horrible doing so. I just feel lonely, but I'm not sure anymore if that is good or bad. It makes me want to smash my head agains an edge, but part of me finds this amusing.
November 21, 2025 at 6:08 PM
I haven't seen irl or done vc with a friend this week at all. Today I was forced to go to class so I finally did, but felt horrible doing so. I just feel lonely, but I'm not sure anymore if that is good or bad. It makes me want to smash my head agains an edge, but part of me finds this amusing.
Haven't really had hunger this entire day. I sort of forced myself into eating a single bread because else my blood sugar level could be dangerous and I'll probably have to force myself to eat again now. Still, haven't even taken a single bit of fast insulin and my blood sugar is low.
November 19, 2025 at 2:22 AM
Haven't really had hunger this entire day. I sort of forced myself into eating a single bread because else my blood sugar level could be dangerous and I'll probably have to force myself to eat again now. Still, haven't even taken a single bit of fast insulin and my blood sugar is low.
Really thinking about drawing some blood but I have visit with endocrinologist tomorrow and I have to be *perfectly stable mentally* so can't do that.
November 19, 2025 at 2:20 AM
Really thinking about drawing some blood but I have visit with endocrinologist tomorrow and I have to be *perfectly stable mentally* so can't do that.
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its beautiful but in the gross way its like one of those really gross shivering chihuahuas or like those shih tzus with crusty eyes
November 18, 2025 at 7:55 AM
its beautiful but in the gross way its like one of those really gross shivering chihuahuas or like those shih tzus with crusty eyes
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My mediocrity disgusts me.
November 13, 2025 at 4:39 PM
My mediocrity disgusts me.
I mostly lack the capacity of being happy or sad for other people. If something good happens to them, I hate that it didn't happen for me. And if something bad happens to them, I also hate that it didn't happen to me instead. The bad is something I envy aswell, for some reason.
November 9, 2025 at 4:38 AM
I mostly lack the capacity of being happy or sad for other people. If something good happens to them, I hate that it didn't happen for me. And if something bad happens to them, I also hate that it didn't happen to me instead. The bad is something I envy aswell, for some reason.
Is it possible not to be existential all the time? Like seriously, are there people who live without constantly fighting their own mind?
November 8, 2025 at 7:35 PM
Is it possible not to be existential all the time? Like seriously, are there people who live without constantly fighting their own mind?
My bullet hell has parry now.
November 6, 2025 at 1:32 AM
My bullet hell has parry now.
Developing a bullet hell.
November 2, 2025 at 6:28 PM
Developing a bullet hell.
My biggest fear are those who are better than me. Sometimes, I don't whish to be better, instead I whish that those people would not exist. I hate that thought and I hate myself for thinking that.
October 30, 2025 at 10:09 PM
My biggest fear are those who are better than me. Sometimes, I don't whish to be better, instead I whish that those people would not exist. I hate that thought and I hate myself for thinking that.
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It's so hard to get myself to draw when most times I do I am not at all satisfied with my skills and it makes me want to repeatedly mash my head against a wall until my skull starts to be seen.
October 16, 2025 at 11:07 PM
It's so hard to get myself to draw when most times I do I am not at all satisfied with my skills and it makes me want to repeatedly mash my head against a wall until my skull starts to be seen.
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I never really had it that bad did I? Yet I remember the feeling. I remember containing my tears in class every day. Failing often. But I never did try it. Why am I normal now? How did I become so ordinary? It's disgusting.
October 2, 2025 at 11:30 PM
I never really had it that bad did I? Yet I remember the feeling. I remember containing my tears in class every day. Failing often. But I never did try it. Why am I normal now? How did I become so ordinary? It's disgusting.
Imagine living in Hidamari Sketch. It would be so happy. Except I'd probably ruin it with my unhappy nature. Anyways, watching this kind of show is strangely calming but also incredibly depressing for the thought of never being able to experience such a life.
September 24, 2025 at 1:33 PM
Imagine living in Hidamari Sketch. It would be so happy. Except I'd probably ruin it with my unhappy nature. Anyways, watching this kind of show is strangely calming but also incredibly depressing for the thought of never being able to experience such a life.
Why did I have to be the one to get diabetes? Fuck you, world.
September 18, 2025 at 1:35 PM
Why did I have to be the one to get diabetes? Fuck you, world.
It somewhat often happens that I start to install a game I feel quite excited to play, and then when it is installed I completely lose interest and leave it there for quite some time until I either start playing it without much motivation or just uninstall it.
September 17, 2025 at 11:15 PM
It somewhat often happens that I start to install a game I feel quite excited to play, and then when it is installed I completely lose interest and leave it there for quite some time until I either start playing it without much motivation or just uninstall it.
You don't know what pain is until it starts really freaking hurting when you go to the toilet (to poop)
September 17, 2025 at 8:39 PM
You don't know what pain is until it starts really freaking hurting when you go to the toilet (to poop)