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@mnshkh.bsky.social · 13d

however i wish it did not come at the expense of me actually sleeping at night

@mnshkh.bsky.social · 13d

they werent lying being productive in the morning and going outside is a good way to start your day

@mnshkh.bsky.social · 16d

it is of course my fault im in this situation

@mnshkh.bsky.social · 16d

bc i dont have a card to put money on it. and we dont have a landline and the idea of asking to use my mothers phone makes me want to [ ] and the entire thought of dealing with my bank makes me panic so badly bc of how much my mother has been on my ass about it for so long

@mnshkh.bsky.social · 16d

everything is a cruel cycle . im almost out of cash (and will be entirely out after tomorrow bc i have to pay for my food at my brothers birthday meal) but i still havent sorted out my card so i cant get more out. but im pretty sure i need to call for my card but i dont have money on my phone

@mnshkh.bsky.social · 20d

i better start getting used to waking up before 6am every fucking weekend i guess

@mnshkh.bsky.social · 20d

sorry she just drives me fucking insane. im seriously not allowed to have a single problem with literally anything she does or she goes down a fucking laundry list of shit shes made up about me and/or anything about me she deems okay to belittle me for. and then always claims shes such a good mother

@mnshkh.bsky.social · 20d

brought it up to her and she got pissed off at me thats so awesome. grown ass woman bitching about being told she actually needs to train her dog for him to learn anything. just making shit up about me in the most bad faith way possible so she can get mad at me for my reasonable request

@mnshkh.bsky.social · 20d

unless i can convince her to start training him in any capacity. but i wouldnt be surprised if she just dismisses it and allows my life to continue being disrupted by a dog i was vehemently against getting for many reasons this being a big one

@mnshkh.bsky.social · 20d

my mother has now gotten a job that requires her to leave the house before 6am which means im also no longer going to sleep past that time whenever she works bc she refuses to do anything about the dogs separation anxiety. awesome

@mnshkh.bsky.social · 21d

@mnshkh.bsky.social · 22d

i went and wandered as much as i am capable of (literally just walked my usual route but i went to see what was down a slightly different path from the park and it just leads back to the same main road. i learnt a lot) and got anew phone cable yay. but didnt have enough for other stuff i need

@mnshkh.bsky.social · 22d

i need to go out this afternoon i dont think ive left the house in literal weeks . i am not good at it

@mnshkh.bsky.social · 23d

getting slightly more oc brained again but IN THE WRONG WAY!!! GRR

@mnshkh.bsky.social · 24d

god gavce me like idk an anxiety disorder andautism bc they knew otherwise id just be pirating everything and thhey hate me

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@mnshkh.bsky.social · 25d

MANY HUMANS EATING AND SWALLING YET NO USE FOUND FOR THE GAG REFLEX

@mnshkh.bsky.social · 25d

the specific type of autism sadness. do you know what i mean. imjust upset about everything all the time recently

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@mnshkh.bsky.social · 25d

theyve got me in a state of sadness

@mnshkh.bsky.social · 26d

realising now that the lingering cough is also going to be a fucking nightmare bc i have gag reflex so bad that any amount of persisent coughing is one million times more unpleasant disorder. cool cool cool. potentially 3+ weeks of that? cool. basically wont be able to talk