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37, She/Her, Bi , Auckland NZ
Yorkshire Kiwi, Social Introvert in my BL/ KPOP era, multi-fandom mess, Fanfic & Podcast Addict, writer. #amwriting #truecrime #STAY #blink
Yorkshire Kiwi, Social Introvert in my BL/ KPOP era, multi-fandom mess, Fanfic & Podcast Addict, writer. #amwriting #truecrime #STAY #blink
Not happy about all the crappy weather we've been having and given I'm already on the edge of a cold (which I refuse to give into untill my tattoo on Saturday) I will be using it as an excuse to work from home tomorrow.
I hate wet weather like so much...especially if it's windy. Like nope.
I hate wet weather like so much...especially if it's windy. Like nope.
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July 29, 2025 at 8:10 AM
Not happy about all the crappy weather we've been having and given I'm already on the edge of a cold (which I refuse to give into untill my tattoo on Saturday) I will be using it as an excuse to work from home tomorrow.
I hate wet weather like so much...especially if it's windy. Like nope.
I hate wet weather like so much...especially if it's windy. Like nope.
At least I managed to grab the pre-orders I wanted as my stay week present to myself despite the excitement and annoyance.
Still I do have to get up early for work (even if I don't want to π)
Still I do have to get up early for work (even if I don't want to π)
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July 27, 2025 at 12:40 PM
At least I managed to grab the pre-orders I wanted as my stay week present to myself despite the excitement and annoyance.
Still I do have to get up early for work (even if I don't want to π)
Still I do have to get up early for work (even if I don't want to π)
Ugh I am so fricking annoyed especially after speaking to two customer service reps in the space of 30 minutes. I'll try again later today or even tomorrow and hopefully then the block will be lifted.
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July 27, 2025 at 12:32 PM
Ugh I am so fricking annoyed especially after speaking to two customer service reps in the space of 30 minutes. I'll try again later today or even tomorrow and hopefully then the block will be lifted.
....or even if it's because I'm making these purchases in the middle of the night. It's still not on my dude....like I moved money from my savings, was adding the MFA codes and everything so I was prepared to buy them.
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July 27, 2025 at 12:29 PM
....or even if it's because I'm making these purchases in the middle of the night. It's still not on my dude....like I moved money from my savings, was adding the MFA codes and everything so I was prepared to buy them.
Erm bank....not that I don't love you looking after my money and all but just because I maybe spent more this weekend than I normally do is no reason to flag my purchases now as fraudulent and decline my card.
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July 27, 2025 at 12:25 PM
Erm bank....not that I don't love you looking after my money and all but just because I maybe spent more this weekend than I normally do is no reason to flag my purchases now as fraudulent and decline my card.
I honestly wish I had never taken this work on....and that I wasn't the only person who knew how to do it. it would make things so much easier having someone to share this with.
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July 18, 2025 at 1:15 AM
I honestly wish I had never taken this work on....and that I wasn't the only person who knew how to do it. it would make things so much easier having someone to share this with.
excuse me while I now try and sleep off this post seizure headache and try not to stress about the work that will now have to wait till Monday
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July 18, 2025 at 1:12 AM
excuse me while I now try and sleep off this post seizure headache and try not to stress about the work that will now have to wait till Monday
nothing like the financial work that stresses me out to hell triggering a seizure today to make me realize I can't keep going like this every month.
it makes my bosses new working arrangements proposed to start next week not feel like they will make any difference at all.
it makes my bosses new working arrangements proposed to start next week not feel like they will make any difference at all.
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July 18, 2025 at 1:09 AM
nothing like the financial work that stresses me out to hell triggering a seizure today to make me realize I can't keep going like this every month.
it makes my bosses new working arrangements proposed to start next week not feel like they will make any difference at all.
it makes my bosses new working arrangements proposed to start next week not feel like they will make any difference at all.
I just need to take it day by day...remind her how much I love her and get as many cuddles as I can while I can.
Thinking like that hurts but what other choice do I have?
Thinking like that hurts but what other choice do I have?
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July 3, 2025 at 11:51 AM
I just need to take it day by day...remind her how much I love her and get as many cuddles as I can while I can.
Thinking like that hurts but what other choice do I have?
Thinking like that hurts but what other choice do I have?
We have a bit of a reprive for me to get my head around it but she seems so fragile after coming back from the vet that I don't think we'll get the full 3 weeks somehow.
And even if we do will it really make it any easier for me to let her go?
And even if we do will it really make it any easier for me to let her go?
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July 3, 2025 at 11:41 AM
We have a bit of a reprive for me to get my head around it but she seems so fragile after coming back from the vet that I don't think we'll get the full 3 weeks somehow.
And even if we do will it really make it any easier for me to let her go?
And even if we do will it really make it any easier for me to let her go?
Got some bad news about my elderly cat which is putting me through an emotional wringer.
Given she's 17 with hyperthyroidism I knew it was only a matter of time until there was no other option than THAT.
But it doesn't make the reality any easier to handle.
Given she's 17 with hyperthyroidism I knew it was only a matter of time until there was no other option than THAT.
But it doesn't make the reality any easier to handle.
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July 3, 2025 at 11:39 AM
Got some bad news about my elderly cat which is putting me through an emotional wringer.
Given she's 17 with hyperthyroidism I knew it was only a matter of time until there was no other option than THAT.
But it doesn't make the reality any easier to handle.
Given she's 17 with hyperthyroidism I knew it was only a matter of time until there was no other option than THAT.
But it doesn't make the reality any easier to handle.
*assed.
I'm just so over it at the moment. Over work, over people and life at this point.
If I was eating in my room at this moment I doubt I'd even be missed tbh.
I'm just so over it at the moment. Over work, over people and life at this point.
If I was eating in my room at this moment I doubt I'd even be missed tbh.
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June 14, 2025 at 5:44 AM
*assed.
I'm just so over it at the moment. Over work, over people and life at this point.
If I was eating in my room at this moment I doubt I'd even be missed tbh.
I'm just so over it at the moment. Over work, over people and life at this point.
If I was eating in my room at this moment I doubt I'd even be missed tbh.
I'm so tired of trying to check with my mum only to get nothing back. Why should I i keep trying is she can't be asked?
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June 14, 2025 at 5:41 AM
I'm so tired of trying to check with my mum only to get nothing back. Why should I i keep trying is she can't be asked?
Yes that's no excuse for how I acted to my dad but neither my sister or mum not having checked in with me recently enough to understand.
I known it's a 2 way street but there just feels like no opportunity to do so. And I'm only acknowledged when I'm useful if that.
I known it's a 2 way street but there just feels like no opportunity to do so. And I'm only acknowledged when I'm useful if that.
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June 14, 2025 at 5:32 AM
Yes that's no excuse for how I acted to my dad but neither my sister or mum not having checked in with me recently enough to understand.
I known it's a 2 way street but there just feels like no opportunity to do so. And I'm only acknowledged when I'm useful if that.
I known it's a 2 way street but there just feels like no opportunity to do so. And I'm only acknowledged when I'm useful if that.
Wow nothing like getting bitched at by my sister when my dad can't see what's in front of him.
My anxiety has been flaring up majorly the past couple of days and yet like always I don't feel like I can say anything. I still don't know what's triggering it but have a clue that work might be it.
My anxiety has been flaring up majorly the past couple of days and yet like always I don't feel like I can say anything. I still don't know what's triggering it but have a clue that work might be it.
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June 14, 2025 at 5:29 AM
Wow nothing like getting bitched at by my sister when my dad can't see what's in front of him.
My anxiety has been flaring up majorly the past couple of days and yet like always I don't feel like I can say anything. I still don't know what's triggering it but have a clue that work might be it.
My anxiety has been flaring up majorly the past couple of days and yet like always I don't feel like I can say anything. I still don't know what's triggering it but have a clue that work might be it.
Honestly adulting is so exhausting. If I didn't have Stray kids (& 3racha's) songs playing during my work days I don't think I would be able to bear it half as much.
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June 11, 2025 at 9:00 AM
Honestly adulting is so exhausting. If I didn't have Stray kids (& 3racha's) songs playing during my work days I don't think I would be able to bear it half as much.
On the positive side I am looking forward to my packages of Stray kids merch coming (even if some may take longer than others). I just have to restrain the urge to buy more for the good of my bank account till next pay day. ππ
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June 11, 2025 at 8:57 AM
On the positive side I am looking forward to my packages of Stray kids merch coming (even if some may take longer than others). I just have to restrain the urge to buy more for the good of my bank account till next pay day. ππ
The whole me being made to do financial stuff at work is getting worse and more indepth since I now find myself responsible for damned cost reconciliations on top of the hassle of the related interim invoices.
I hate financial stuff so fucking MUCH!!!!
I hate financial stuff so fucking MUCH!!!!
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June 11, 2025 at 8:49 AM
The whole me being made to do financial stuff at work is getting worse and more indepth since I now find myself responsible for damned cost reconciliations on top of the hassle of the related interim invoices.
I hate financial stuff so fucking MUCH!!!!
I hate financial stuff so fucking MUCH!!!!
My mental health has been so bad the last few days...not sure everything if it's because something else has triggered me recently but it's left me crying for no reason and sleeping way more than normal which are warning signs. Hopefully when I go back to work I'll even out again.
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June 2, 2025 at 9:28 AM
My mental health has been so bad the last few days...not sure everything if it's because something else has triggered me recently but it's left me crying for no reason and sleeping way more than normal which are warning signs. Hopefully when I go back to work I'll even out again.
Thankful af that my mum changed the channel on yet another anti fast food program. They are so triggering af which is the last thing I need especially when I'm not in the right headspace at the moment.
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June 2, 2025 at 9:17 AM
Thankful af that my mum changed the channel on yet another anti fast food program. They are so triggering af which is the last thing I need especially when I'm not in the right headspace at the moment.
So that's a hard pass on not restricting you me thinks....now back to my regular stray kids scrolling.
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May 31, 2025 at 9:07 AM
So that's a hard pass on not restricting you me thinks....now back to my regular stray kids scrolling.
Lmfao yeah because you really love me when you rarely interact with me otherwise. I don't fucking think so.
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May 31, 2025 at 9:01 AM
Lmfao yeah because you really love me when you rarely interact with me otherwise. I don't fucking think so.
#thatmomentwhen you are clearing your spam message requests on ig and see a blocked message from an Aunt on my dad's side about 'I love my nieces' day. Needless to say it's say it's still sitting blocked π€
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May 31, 2025 at 8:55 AM
#thatmomentwhen you are clearing your spam message requests on ig and see a blocked message from an Aunt on my dad's side about 'I love my nieces' day. Needless to say it's say it's still sitting blocked π€
Got a major headache and now after an email from my tattooist about my last appointment with them before they retire (which only made it worse due to everything looking wrong π€¦π»ββοΈ) I just want to go back into my room and drown in skz code.
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May 17, 2025 at 9:39 AM
Got a major headache and now after an email from my tattooist about my last appointment with them before they retire (which only made it worse due to everything looking wrong π€¦π»ββοΈ) I just want to go back into my room and drown in skz code.
Might have managed to talk my way out of it by agreeing to look after my elderly sick cat...depending on what my sister says.
I do feel guilty for missing out on spending time with my nieces but unless they come up with an alternative it is what it is.
I do feel guilty for missing out on spending time with my nieces but unless they come up with an alternative it is what it is.
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May 17, 2025 at 8:06 AM
Might have managed to talk my way out of it by agreeing to look after my elderly sick cat...depending on what my sister says.
I do feel guilty for missing out on spending time with my nieces but unless they come up with an alternative it is what it is.
I do feel guilty for missing out on spending time with my nieces but unless they come up with an alternative it is what it is.