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Natalie Reilly-Johnson
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Consultant Clinical Psychologist and Writer
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Gran takes a sip of tea as we sing happy birthday.

Afterwards, the song still ringing in our ears, she puts down the cup & it rattles against the #saucer.

We don’t look. We just talk about the weather, the garden, the cake.

Anything but that tremor and what it might mean. #vss365
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Gran takes a sip of tea as we sing happy birthday.

Afterwards, the song still ringing in our ears, she puts down the cup & it rattles against the #saucer.

We don’t look. We just talk about the weather, the garden, the cake.

Anything but that tremor and what it might mean. #vss365
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Maria’s husband & his beautiful work colleague are discussing the #atom - attraction, energy, bonds holding things together. Their eyes meet; a chain reaction.
Maria sips her wine & watches.
Could this woman end her marriage?
She crosses her fingers. Oh, she hopes so…
#vss365
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Our lips #hover, almost-touching, like fingers poised above piano keys.

Will he turn out to be Mozart, or does he only know how to play Chopsticks?

My skin prickles in anticipation. Either way, there’s nothing more delicious than this breath-hold moment of not-knowing… #vss365
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Haha, I love that!

This was actually a fictional story for a writing prompt that on this day had to contain the prompt word ‘android.’ I was referencing a Radiohead song in a geeky ‘if you know, you know’ kind of way… 😁
I keep failing those “I’m not a robot” tests.
I’m becoming slightly paranoid that I might be an #android.
I try to click on all the cars, but the unborn chicken voices in my head won’t stop.
I just want to drop this computer from a great height, from a great height… #vss365
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My mind was a jungle, thoughts caterwauling & swinging from branch to branch.
I took the pills.
Now sleep comes easily. It’s a desert in my head.
Quiet.
#Arid.
Yet not exactly tranquil. I can’t recall what I wanted peace from, but something still crawls beneath the sand. #vss365
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I’d been dreading this reunion but it was fun comparing wrinkles & waistlines.

“Look at Sarah,” I said. “She hasn’t aged a day. She looks almost #unearthly.”

They all went quiet.

“What?” I asked.

“She died years ago.”

I nodded. “Ah. That explains it then.” #vss365
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If there was ever a story I wish I’d written, it’s ‘Yesterday.’ The premise is this: you’re the only person in the world who remembers The #Beatles. Do you ‘write’ their songs & cash in?

What? You’ve never heard of ‘Yesterday’?

*Checks Netflix. Nothing.*
*Starts typing* #vss365
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The smell of incense draws me into the palm reader’s tent. Or maybe it’s the music.
“Standard or #deluxe?” says Psychic Sue.
“What’s the difference?”
“You get a hand massage with the deluxe.” She frowns at my palms. “I suggest you decide now.”
“Deluxe!”
Best massage ev… #vss365
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She was the brightest True Spring in the online Colour & Style community. Her palette had empowered her to love herself. And leave her controlling man.

So when she posted a selfie in a dusty blue top, dulling her warm #undertone, we knew.

Someone was trying to dim her light. #vss365
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He won me a fish at the fair.

It glinted as it circled the bag, & I saw it through his eyes. A prize for his prize.

But that wasn’t a goldfish. It was a #piranha.

“Back to mine?” I said, flashing a toothy grin. He was going to regret this. For I was no goldfish either… #vss365
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She walks away, her beautiful yellow #raincoat impossibly bright in the grey afternoon. It occurs to me that it always rains the last time I see someone.

“Wait!”

I run to her, arms outstretched, and check the label. I *have* to know where it’s from. Could be my last chance. #vss365
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Years later, at the reunion, our old pal Richard’s still full of #verve.
‘All this talk of getting old is getting me down,’ he says.
I laugh. ‘We’re gonna live forever!’
‘I think you should now by now,’ he says, ‘it’s just… melody & silence.’
And it definitely is. Maybe. #vss365
She’s got a brother. Typical of him to be here now.
“Where were you?” he says. “We said we’d meet up in the year 2000.”
What’s he’s on about? It’s still the 90s.
Then he asks if I wanna dance & drink & screw, because there’s nothing else to do.
I shrug. “Whatever.” #vss365 #pulp
“Step outside, summertime’s in bloom!” I say, but she just shakes her head & says, “There’s no other way.”

I don’t look back in anger. No, I don’t feel down. Now is not the time to cry. All I need are cigarettes & alcohol. #vss365 #oasis
I felt self-conscious at the festival. Too old.

Until I saw the #libertine of legend, shirtless, clutching a can, still “looking rough & living strange.”

I raised my drink & my eyebrow at him across the crowded tent. It wasn’t too late to become a middle-aged shambles... #vss365
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I find a childhood relic: a pack of cigarette sweets.

We’d inhale sugary air & tap imaginary #ash away, playing at being grown up.

I sigh into the dust. “It’s not that glamorous.”

I take a fake drag & reminisce about youth.

“It was never that sweet,” the dust replies. #vss365
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Their eyes met at the staff Christmas Carols, beneath the harsh lights in reception. Two discordant voices - his flat, hers sharp. Her sparkly Santa hat #clashed with his festive jumper. Their teams were notorious rivals.

And yet, in that moment… love at first sight. #vss365
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Brenda was crying.
“What’s up?” said Kath.
“Caught a whiff of my husband’s old aftershave. I #associate that smell with the day he left: grief.”
“Associate it with freedom instead,” Kath said. “I love the smell that reminds me of when mine went.”
“Davidoff?”
“No. Bleach.” #vss365
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He’s the perfect partner. Apart from the fact that every 30 seconds or so he freezes & breaks into an #advert.

I can live with it, though…

This vss is brought to you by Penguin. P-p-pick up an upgrade to Premium today.

…because I’m programmed to do the same. #vss365
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He sat scrolling while she hung the washing.

She sighed. “I feel like this old pair of knickers these days.”

“What, saggy & faded?” he chuckled.

She felt something snap inside her. Her fingers tightened around the knife in her pocket. “No. The #elastic’s gone.” #vss365
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She’s got a brother. Typical of him to be here now.
“Where were you?” he says. “We said we’d meet up in the year 2000.”
What’s he’s on about? It’s still the 90s.
Then he asks if I wanna dance & drink & screw, because there’s nothing else to do.
I shrug. “Whatever.” #vss365 #pulp
“Step outside, summertime’s in bloom!” I say, but she just shakes her head & says, “There’s no other way.”

I don’t look back in anger. No, I don’t feel down. Now is not the time to cry. All I need are cigarettes & alcohol. #vss365 #oasis
“We’re engaged!” I said. Then, “Woo hoo!” Maybe that’s what triggered it?

“Well,” she said, “in the words of #Blur, it always should be someone you really love.”

“He is,” I said.

She mumbled something about dirty pigeons. Now all she does is watch afternoon repeats & the food she eats. #vss365
“Step outside, summertime’s in bloom!” I say, but she just shakes her head & says, “There’s no other way.”

I don’t look back in anger. No, I don’t feel down. Now is not the time to cry. All I need are cigarettes & alcohol. #vss365 #oasis
“We’re engaged!” I said. Then, “Woo hoo!” Maybe that’s what triggered it?

“Well,” she said, “in the words of #Blur, it always should be someone you really love.”

“He is,” I said.

She mumbled something about dirty pigeons. Now all she does is watch afternoon repeats & the food she eats. #vss365
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