I'm just a total failure it looks like. No matter what I do I always end up making things worse. I wish I could turn back time 15 years and start over. So much time I just wasted failing over and over... losing what's important to me left and right. I can't do this anymore

I've lost close ones that I can never forgive myself for. Out of my own stupidity, out of my lack of self esteem and failure of socialising. JoRoFox, Tobias, I am sorry I couldn't be the friend you deserved. And now I'm about to lose the last one I would do anything in my power for to make happy.

why can't I be someone who is compatible with others...why can't I be someone that people are glad to be around...no, I always end up being annoying, being a nuisance, being someone folks are glad to get rid of once I leave... even the people I love, that I would run across the earth for... I fail

I wish for once people would act thankful in any way shape or form towards my existence and how I am at least trying to be a good person. Trying to make folks happy, trying to fit in. Instead all I get is a list of things I've done wrong. People just making me feel like a worthless piece of junk...

"The trams into town are on strike again? Ehh ok I guess i'll just have a Gyros at this local place".

The Gyros at this local place:

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