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She/He/They Digital music composer. Fucking silly I’m here to yap about my series to a tiny audience, and share some doodles.. welcome ♥️ I love fruity smoothies and cats 🤍Jack of all trades, Master of None. 🖤

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R E N @nolongernull.bsky.social · 15d

I ain’t happy
I’m feeling sad
I got sunshine
In a bag
I’m useless
But not for long
The future
Is coming on
I ain’t happy
I’m feeling sad
I got sunshine
In a bag
I’m useless
But not for long
The future
Is coming on
It’s coming on
It’s coming on

R E N @nolongernull.bsky.social · Jul 26

Was basically diagnosed w bpd for now

Shit sucks but I finally understand what’s up

I’m happy I have friends who understand me and don’t get too upset with me

I love my friends

R E N @nolongernull.bsky.social · Jul 26

He’s currently given me stuff for sever anxiety and depression

Also gave me a few days ago a mood stabilizer

He said we will work on my focus and attention span later but for now I need to regain control over the way I react to situations and calm down my extremes

Yay

R E N @nolongernull.bsky.social · Jul 26

I usually prefer to post my more personal posts here since Twitter is kinda scary and unsafe

Anyways

I’m kinda frustrated that medication takes so much time to start taking effect on my silly brain

I wanna be normal now ! ! !

My psych reassured me that stuff will work out

R E N @nolongernull.bsky.social · May 29

I’m quitting pressure soon
I’m tired of this

R E N @nolongernull.bsky.social · Jan 24

I can have it distributed there !

R E N @nolongernull.bsky.social · Jan 8

Blood Rank character design chat going well

R E N @nolongernull.bsky.social · Jan 4

2 months in weeeee :3

R E N @nolongernull.bsky.social · Jan 2

Take all the time u need to develop urself

We are all flawed in our own way. Broken, weird and STUPID

Don’t hate urself
Don’t torture urself

Be sweet and kind or at least try ur best to be to YOU

Trying leads to succeeding
Improving
Only you can steer ur life right

And ONLY when u accept urself

R E N @nolongernull.bsky.social · Jan 2

Oh also people tend to tangle up age with maturity as if me being 21 years old now I should be fully devloped emotionally

It’s not true

I don’t blame teens who go through lots of emotional and social confusion

I’ve only recently been understanding mine

It takes time a long time
Be kind to urself

R E N @nolongernull.bsky.social · Jan 2

Also bonus

I DIDNT CRY WRITING THIS DOWN I DIDNT GET EMOTIONAL I TYPED AND AM SMILING AND SO NORMAL ITS AMAZING

man I’m so proud urgh yayyyyy

R E N @nolongernull.bsky.social · Jan 2

With all the insanity I’ve been through in my life, I don’t ever torture myself over the feelings I grew up having… not anymore at least

I just felt proud today is all and felt like yapping about it as this place is like a new dairy after all since I burned down my Twitter

Anyways I’m improving !

R E N @nolongernull.bsky.social · Jan 2

I even asked a random girl that I forgot her name… uhm I forget names too much… but anyways I asked her to see her project and she took me across the hallways until I got to the place where she placed her project and complimented it too !

I choked up a bit ngl but I managed !

I was social today

R E N @nolongernull.bsky.social · Jan 2

Today at school, I managed to complement 6 different people without tearing up !
That’s when I knew I’m doing progress in being more normal
I didn’t cry
I didn’t run away and leave the group

I was so social and so normal

And in my head I kept thinking “wow Im so proud of u Ren… wow ur doing great”

R E N @nolongernull.bsky.social · Jan 2

It’s been really hard having irregular emotions
It’s really hard for me to express feelings properly
Brain is very unstable but it gets easier to deal with every year I grow up

It’s like it needs sooooo much practice and analyzing people around you to know what’s ‘normal’ so u copy them

R E N @nolongernull.bsky.social · Jan 2

People being nice to me makes me cry
It’s not like it’s rare for people to be nice to me but I can’t help it I just sob my eyes out
Hugs also make me cry

I always avoid the nice things cuz I feel so sad for some reason bruh LOOJ MY EYES ARE TEARING UP JUST TYPING IT OUT LIKE EXCUSE ME

R E N @nolongernull.bsky.social · Jan 2

It’s the worst when it’s in an inappropriate timing, or situation like at school

Professor would ask me “are you okay?” And I start crying

Like I’m okay but cuz he checked on me I feel so emotional that he felt nice enough to ask me a nice question and I burst into tears like WHY MANNN

R E N @nolongernull.bsky.social · Jan 2

Emotional regulation is very strange, and I wonder if there’s more people out there like me

I go from completely numb and unable to feel anything at all, to hyper laughing at things that aren’t even funny, that my tummy hurts from laughing, to crying over anything like crying over a meme or smthn

R E N @nolongernull.bsky.social · Jan 1

HAPPY NEW YEAR YEEAAAAHHHH

R E N @nolongernull.bsky.social · Dec 30

R E N @nolongernull.bsky.social · Dec 29

They them ever wtf hi them

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Cerl @cerltified.bsky.social · Dec 29

Karth & Vesper @nolongernull.bsky.social

R E N @nolongernull.bsky.social · Dec 28

R E N @nolongernull.bsky.social · Dec 28

Imma start spamming this as a thread every time I do pose practice so I can force myself to spam this thread and do more pose practice get it cuz I need to practice more and spam means a lot of practice images and they won’t make themselves haha I need to practice more poses and perspectives cuz I

R E N @nolongernull.bsky.social · Dec 27

Crybaby