didn’t do due diligence & learned that blue sky is israeli backed

us -> nl

adjoining this with the way proximity to Blackness &/or indigeneity via tokenization allows nazi bedfellows to hide in plain sight leaves my optimism tarnished

all the disaffected white people i grew up with at saic always gave me an off vibe but the apathy now reads as contently fascist. jc, cs, hg, grb, gw, ap, ml, lfn, m, p all give me particularly yt sup vibes priorly, presently and post.. why are yall supporting estates of neo nazis?

like my advisor during grad school basically told me he cant in good faith write on my behalf for funding or conferences as i’m clearly uncommitted to the maths research formalism of procuring machinery to answer some question akin to measuring weeds; i love algeom but completionism is just not it

like i’m sorry that i want to deeply invest my time into career pathways that are mutually exclusive & that contemplative pedagogy isn’t a sustainable mathematical practice

art world bores me, math world thinks i’m a bimbo, bimbo world things i’m scary, astro world banned me, education world called me a tranny, grindr world asked to view my album, 304world is slow; what’s an exit strategy when you need one anyways

winter shows in a recession is crazy

like there’s been at least renaissance society show per year that falls into this trap & it’s no longer giving fluke but locus of some shoddy art historical episteme

i keep seeing art that works with a Minimal understanding of history & rendering its participation in historiography as open ended & generative rather | high end process & facility doesn’t upend mythos that enables ytness