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@rattusfaber.bsky.social

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Born to be a facing-eating huldrekall, forced to write columns for a living. Sometimes pretend to be an artist. Taller than @bloodiedprophecy.bsky.social. (Pfp credit: Potatolord on picrew)

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Smoker on the Balcony @rattusfaber.bsky.social · Dec 26

Once and for all, my specific art style is called ‘not being very good at art’. Hope that answers all the questions you may have

Smoker on the Balcony @rattusfaber.bsky.social · Jul 5

Summers depress me a lot more than winters, also a fun fact (to me). Also trying to stick with French most of the day makes me want to dip my head in a bucket of cold water and fall into a cryo coma for the rest of my natural existence

Smoker on the Balcony @rattusfaber.bsky.social · Jul 5

Felling burnout like an invisible beast is always strange because, well, it feels like I’m achieving new heights and then it’s actually just banal and not something worth mentioning at all. Odd.

Smoker on the Balcony @rattusfaber.bsky.social · Jul 5

I learned something today. Very much regretting some conversations I had and words I chose to use.

Eric Woldry (he/him) 🌈 @woldry.bsky.social · Jul 5

When a disabled person tells you they can't do something anymore, it's not helpful or kind to reassure them that yes, they can, just not like they used to.

And when they try to explain how they cannot, it's downright cruel to argue with them.

Posting with no particular conversation today in mind.😏

Smoker on the Balcony @rattusfaber.bsky.social · Jul 1

Yeah, I know. Mayyyybe one day?
I’m tired, yeah. Exhausted
Gunite

Smoker on the Balcony @rattusfaber.bsky.social · Jul 1

@bloodiedprophecy.bsky.social or you chain me up either in your Paris flat with a fake fireplace or in your ancestry hamlet by the riviera with creaky floorboards and I’ll sleep in your fireplace and forget that I exist

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Smoker on the Balcony @rattusfaber.bsky.social · Jul 1

#UnaliveTW
But I also don’t want to taint the forest with death, so maybe the sea will have me. After all it’s so big. I hope I get picked clean by seagulls and whatnot, before they find me and bury me in an unmarked grave.

…There are thoughts and words, I can’t remember them. (Yes I am inebriated)

Smoker on the Balcony @rattusfaber.bsky.social · Jul 1

#UnaliveTW

When I was a kid (not even joking) I swore I was going to make sure I died when I hit 40

Now that’s a long-ish way to go still, but it’s so bizarre to think at this age. Why 40? I’m not sure. But that belief is ingrained in me and it’s equally ridiculous and odd.

Smoker on the Balcony @rattusfaber.bsky.social · Jul 1

“Stop smoking, at this rate you are going to get COPD by 40”

Well the alternative is I die of something else so I’ll never have COPD, HA!

Well thing is I can’t die a Viking death anymore but what if one day I disappear into the forest and let the frozen lake and wintry dryads claim me

Smoker on the Balcony @rattusfaber.bsky.social · Jun 22

Correction: the poem was written by my dad, only the complaint portion was mine. What a disappointment

Smoker on the Balcony @rattusfaber.bsky.social · Jun 20

I have absolutely no memory of writing it, and I ONLY ever called my brother Lyosh, so the provenance is dubious.
Anyway I have no shame claiming it now, if only as proof that I was raging against the machine since childhood

Smoker on the Balcony @rattusfaber.bsky.social · Jun 20

But Alyosha
I say
Look at the boat I made
Out of newspaper
'Stop bothering me'
I know
I should have showed you the boat before you went to school
I hate
Hate
Hate
What they're doing to you

(2/2)

Smoker on the Balcony @rattusfaber.bsky.social · Jun 20

Apparently a poem I wrote as a child:

A song about Alexei the great, and school

You smell bad and you are
crying
I hug you and tell you about my day
You are not listening
Instead, you tell me to go away
You have work to do
Something about Alexander the great
And then you have to practice

(1/2)

Smoker on the Balcony @rattusfaber.bsky.social · Jun 7

Okay this one I'm actually happy with, which almost neeever happens

C @bloodiedprophecy.bsky.social · Jun 7

I don't recall if I ever posted this, but this is the interior of Braithwaite's favourite drawing room in the hall. Built by the brilliant @rattusfaber.bsky.social

Smoker on the Balcony @rattusfaber.bsky.social · Jun 7

HAHA thank you! I was happy about it (I want to swap out the ceiling tiles now)

C @bloodiedprophecy.bsky.social · Jun 7

Looking through the gallery, I realised I had never uploaded this one. Billiards room in the Braithwaite Hall, built by the brilliant @rattusfaber.bsky.social #fallenlondon #lodgings

Smoker on the Balcony @rattusfaber.bsky.social · Jun 7

We really should talk about it more often, because Parabola is real yk??

C @bloodiedprophecy.bsky.social · Jun 7

@rattusfaber.bsky.social 's FLPC, in his younger days on the surface. I'd call it an alternate universe, where he and his spouse had already met.

It's not something we talk about often, but I like the idea.

Smoker on the Balcony @rattusfaber.bsky.social · Jun 7

(Which is a whole lot cooler than how I write/play him)

C @bloodiedprophecy.bsky.social · Jun 7

I'm not going to tag this one, but it's definitely amongst my favouries. @rattusfaber.bsky.social 's FLPC.

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C @bloodiedprophecy.bsky.social · May 29

Lastly, my favourite from today. @rattusfaber.bsky.social

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C @bloodiedprophecy.bsky.social · May 29

It almost looks like they'd care if each other died right there and then. @rattusfaber.bsky.social

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C @bloodiedprophecy.bsky.social · May 29

A lot of in progress screenshots for you, call it 'screen test', if you will. @rattusfaber.bsky.social #FLPC

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Smoker on the Balcony @rattusfaber.bsky.social · May 27

Because I like to think the idle 5 card lodgings that aren’t people’s (well, mine, anyway) primary residences are perpetually left in a state of turmoil. Piled to the ceiling with idk, things you never touch, can’t sell & have around for no reason (now possibly less so due to agents) #fallenlondon