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diary @sleepspell.bsky.social · 3h

i want to feel a sense of freedom

diary @sleepspell.bsky.social · 3h

i want to feel comfortable in my own house again

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diary @sleepspell.bsky.social · 3h

but in the meantime the curtains are drawn, my bed another room in an already small room, it swallowing the space inside and outside of itself, occupying and defining space larger than itself, shrinking it, constricting

diary @sleepspell.bsky.social · 3h

so the canopy stays up. to appease her. a girl that hardly leaves her corner of my head to come to the surface. i guess i keep it up in case she needs it. sometimes i think she's not there anymore.

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diary @sleepspell.bsky.social · 3h

as soon as i grow up i take the canopy down, as soon as i take the canopy down im a kid again. as soon as i put the canopy up i grow up again. it's hard sharing a room with your sister...

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diary @sleepspell.bsky.social · 3h

so what am i supposed to do. i guess im a grown up most of the time anyways. ill keep living with this split.

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diary @sleepspell.bsky.social · 3h

i still need my stuffies... i couldnt stand to get rid of my stuffies... and i dont really want dad to go away... but its been ages since shes been here anyways...

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diary @sleepspell.bsky.social · 3h

or

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diary @sleepspell.bsky.social · 3h

im throwing away all of those things. im basically an adult. i can handle myself. i can handle myself. i can handle myself. i dont need the illusion of dad or the canopy bed or

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