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Anathema

Anathema

@soulofdark.bsky.social

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A void, a hole, a landmine. 👁

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Anathema @soulofdark.bsky.social · Oct 1

//assume that not every interaction on this account will be canon, this is mostly just so I get a feel for writing them, feel free to interact all you want I need to use them!!

Anathema @soulofdark.bsky.social · 13h

//I know people love queerbaiting but yeah I would want them to act more like an actual person instead of someone who is written to have fun scenarios and wacky relationships!

I kinda dont know why im talking abojt this because I dont really plan on returning. Whatever.

Anathema @soulofdark.bsky.social · 13h

//Also that means I would never bring back adult Kris. It is entirely that plus haha sex jokes and honestly that whole account just makes me cringe to think about. I don't like it. They were never canon anyways.

Anathema @soulofdark.bsky.social · 13h

//Teenagers don't usually kiss people this often, I want Kris to feel like a realistic teenager. This doesn't feel real it feels like a romcom and I dont really care to write like that anymore

Anathema @soulofdark.bsky.social · 13h

//Not to say I would never have them be in any but it would take a lot more for me to actually do it. I think I did a lot of it because it was fun but it was never really realistic. I would want to do more realistic portrayals of relationships instead of just doing it for the sake of it

Anathema @soulofdark.bsky.social · 13h

//To add on to this. Even if I did come back I think I would change a lot of things. For one I've sort of realized how little I actually want to focus on romantic relationships. I kind of stopped caring. I think I would straight up decanonize every romantic relationship Kris has.

Anathema @soulofdark.bsky.social · 13h

//I still want to get my story out there. But I dont know how I will. I dont have the talent to just make an entire like. Mockup by myself. Especially cus I cant write for shit. So I dont know what to do. At all.

So I guess thats what I've been thinking about recently. Yeah.

Anathema @soulofdark.bsky.social · 13h

//I wanted to show signs of depression while being subtle and I dont even know if anyone noticed because im just not that good of a writer.

In fact looking back I think I did it very poorly. I dont think I wrote anything really that good.

Anathema @soulofdark.bsky.social · 13h

//And truthfully, I didn't want to just have them kill people over and over again because it would just be repetitive. From the start I wanted to shine a light on the more quiet part of mental illness, and literally killing people and having mental breakdowns is the opposite of quiet.

Anathema @soulofdark.bsky.social · 13h

It felt like the only time I got attention was when my Kris did something crazy like kill someone which of fucking course that would get attention. If my posts arent good enough for people to care about when I'm not literally killing off another character than why am I even here?

Anathema @soulofdark.bsky.social · 13h

//I'm not a good writer, I have a limited vocabulary because I'm a fucking idiot. I can't be verbose, I can't make something worth reading. But I have a hell of an imagination, I can craft stories with something to say, I think I'm good at that.

Anathema @soulofdark.bsky.social · 13h

// Theres been something else that has been eating me up recently though. And that is the fact that I need to tell the story I made for SoulofLight.

I've given up on writing. To be honest with every post I make I just felt more and more like shit as I promptly got ignored.

Anathema @soulofdark.bsky.social · 13h

//its been tempting to reactivate my Kris account to respond to all the interaction bait but instead of having them
flirt I would just have them say stupid shit.

But I don't really know if I actually want to do that or if I just have the urge to write. Would people actually care? I don't know.

Anathema @soulofdark.bsky.social · 13h

//Hey.

I guess I should say something other than just posting art. But I dont really know if I have anything TO say.

For one, this isn't me coming back. In fact once I finished this drawing I was going to prolly vanish again.

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Anathema @soulofdark.bsky.social · 6d

[I may just move back on to my main plan.]

Anathema @soulofdark.bsky.social · 6d

//I feel like reasonably Anathema would stop this since that was the whole deal but also i am not interfering.

Anathema @soulofdark.bsky.social · 6d

[We are back after a momentary interruption... Now, don't look away.]

Anathema @soulofdark.bsky.social · 6d

SCATTER.

Anathema @soulofdark.bsky.social · 6d

I've been dying all day..

Anathema @soulofdark.bsky.social · 6d

..eughh..