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anyone else colour coordinate their pc? or am i just autistic
i have cider and i reorganised my browser pins + my pantry. all is right in the world
OKAY AS SOON AS I POSTED THIS SHE REPLIED AND SAID SHE FORGOT. GOD I'M SO RELIEVEDD
hhh i feel so anxious bc after she agreed + we had a chat she just kinda went offline and stopped talking to me. i left her be overnight bc i didn't wanna pressure her and it's safe to assume she just got busy, but i just messaged her asking if it was still okay + she went offline...
fuck i'm so shameless. i asked to borrow $50 until tuesday from my friend's mum
i keep going over in my head about who i could ask to borrow money to go buy alcohol from. i owe most of my friends money, i can't ask my mum, my bf sent me money for a video game pass not long ago... but i feel so desperate for a drink
why are all my safe foods so damn expensive. sushi, monster ultra, strawberries, chobani yogurt, lean cuisine, they're all expensive!! i need my safe foods to be like... instant oats and mac and cheese
▸ when you take steps to climb out of that main depressive episode, you can move forward to planning out small goals. but it's okay to prioritise your mental wellbeing first, before your productivity or scholarly achievements.

▸ nobody can get you out of episodes except you. you're worth it ♡
a man with long hair and a beard says take care my friend on a netflix ad
ALT: a man with long hair and a beard says take care my friend on a netflix ad
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ALSO:

▸ therapy helps. finding someone who you can confide in and who listens to you and doesn't debate your feelings is so so valueable. they can offer advice or just sit and chill with you and hear you out. do NOT use chatgpt or other AI chatbots because they don't help you.
+you just sit in your back or front yard for 30 minutes a day.

▸ put effort into your meals. even if it's just 3 times a week, making a beautiful and nutritious meal can help you feel way more positive about yourself than if you get caught in a junk food or starvation cycle.
in conclusion:

▸ accept how you feel and reassure yourself that it's okay.
▸ fix your sleep schedule. try to wake up around the same time every day (before 11am) and give the day a chance.
▸ open up your curtains/windows. it's not good for us as humans to never see the sky.
▸ go outside, even if+
▸ as someone who's always had an interest in japanese culture, the phrase "目で食べる" or "to eat with your eyes" comes to mind whenever i present my food. at least as i understand it, this just means that your eyes eat first. a pretty meal is more satisfying to your soul. take your time!
tip 5: make nutritious and beautiful meals

▸ now ik as people with EDs we struggle w this. but still try to make a cute meal for yourself. bright colours with fresh veggies and fruits really help! if it's dull in colour, add some:
cherry tomatoes, lettuce, spring onion, cutely cut veggies
some examples of what can be helpful:

▸ if you have a garden or outside area, just go chill out there for 30 mins or so during the day

▸ go for a walk around your neighbourhood block. i like to take pictures of specific colours on my walks!

▸ go to a local store and buy something for yourself
tip 4: try to get time outdoors

▸ ik this one can be ROUGH. i get super withdrawn and anxious and insecure during my episodes, so i really hate going outside. something that helps me is going out when it's dark or gloomy - but please only do this in a safe area and be cautious.
tip 3: open your curtains

▸ you might feel more locked into the darkness of your room or house if all the curtains are drawn and the windows are shut, so go ahead and open them. even if it's just a little, you'll feel more open and connected with what's going on outside. it seriously helps
some ways to fix your sleep schedule are:

▸ reducing your late night screen time. try replacing a screen with journalling, doodling, reading or crafts!
+a more appropriate time. it doesn't have to be 5 or 6am, but try to aim for before 11am. it seriously does make a huge difference to your mental state to be awake and alert during the day. it feels like you have so much more time (because you do!).
tip 2: fix that sleep schedule.

▸i know this is a rough one, but seriously it's a huge factor for resetting that depressive episode. you may temporarily feel relief when you're up alone all night long and sleep as the sun comes up, but it will only make you feel worse. set a goal to wake up at+
some ways you can help accept your feelings are:

▸ writing a journal to express them without fear of judgement
▸ talk to some close friends who will understand and comfort you
▸write or speak affirmations to yourself, like "it's not my fault for feeling this way".
tip 1: accept your feelings

▸ try not to be frustrated with yourself for feeling this way. accepting that you're feeling depressed and that that fact is out of your control is a crucial step to caring about yourself. if you're constantly beratting yourself for your depression, you'll feel worse.
plus hopefully it'll reduce the number of smashed glass bottles laying around!!
came across this in my city, how cool!! it's gonna help prevent homeless people from having to go through the bins for cans and bottles to recycle for a bit of cash
servo energy drink prices are inhumane. how is a girl supposed to start her day when 1 monster is $6.99