I don't know what my intent with posting this was, I just need to yell into the void. I am high functioning autistic, and I am exhausted. I am not looking for advice. I just need other humans to see this and know it exists. 1/?

#ActuallyAutistic #AutisticAdults #Neurodivergent #Venting

I'm so utterly miserable. I've gone to every organization I can think of and no help. I can't get a social worker, I can't get a therapist, I can't get any amount of help in any way with any auspect of my life. I have not talked to another human in months. Just faceless clerks who turn me away.

Every time I try to interact with anyone, I am met immediately with hostility, and it usually stems, from the others description, from me somehow being hostile.

How? All I want to do is communicate, but somehow it's always seen as hostile? I don't know what to do.

Really though, how do I interact? Find a sense of community? Make friends? If I found a song I liked how would I ever talk about it with anyone.

What, #joeiconisalbum ? just @joeiconis? Wow I loved Ammonia, what a fantastic song. End thought.

Really, how does social media work, I don't know

What do I say, what do I do! I want to talk about genetic algorithms, does #geneticalgorithms allow me to find people totalk to about that? what about #ai

Okay, I'm here. I'm new. I'm definitely not hip and I definitely do not understand how to make friends, but I'm trying. I remember words, yeah #hashtag I think that's how this works..