OH GOD I'M FUCKIN LOSING IT🔞
@theoilspill.bsky.social
160 followers 200 following 140 posts
Welcome to my humble abode <3 20 - Artist - multifandom - doodle account, will post NSFW 💥💥NO AGE ON THE BOI, GET BLOCKED💥💥 SFW (tumblr): https://www.tumblr.com/the-holy-crusade-of-an-oil
Posts Media Videos Starter Packs
theoilspill.bsky.social
I have ideas of what could be their storyline once i have turned them into my actual ocs outside the cotl, and it's a heist mobster or what else you wanna call it, it would be abuddy buddy type, however while still have cotl influence especially with their relationship.
theoilspill.bsky.social
Thinking whether i turn Lamb and Narinder like separate from the cotl, by turning them into my ocs with thier shit going... but then they're basically ocs, except one is an existing character...
theoilspill.bsky.social
Thinking whether i turn Lamb and Narinder like separate from the cotl, by turning them into my ocs with thier shit going... but then they're basically ocs, except one is an existing character...
Reposted by OH GOD I'M FUCKIN LOSING IT🔞
kariitoart.bsky.social
Keep participating until one gets papa’s color pallete #yautja #predator #depredador
Reposted by OH GOD I'M FUCKIN LOSING IT🔞
bloodorang3.bsky.social
AVPtober Day 2: Alien vs Predator

#art #artmoots #artshare #promosky #Artistonbsky #character #yautja #predator #avp #alien #oc #inktober #xenomorph
A digital drawing of my sona Paris (right) holding a small xenomorph while my Yautja oc D'ast does some target practice. The text above him says "Okay now hold still."
Reposted by OH GOD I'M FUCKIN LOSING IT🔞
bloodorang3.bsky.social
AVPtober Day 1: Hair tie

#art #artmoots #artshare #promosky #Artistonbsky #character #yautja #predator #avp #alien #oc #inktober
A digital drawing of my sona Paris doing the hair of my yautja oc D'ast based off the Predator franchise
Reposted by OH GOD I'M FUCKIN LOSING IT🔞
magnuspool.bsky.social
It’s like he went from dealing with two Gremlins straight to the next two. No break for Xar’tuuk
#yautja
theoilspill.bsky.social
I'm just making myself feel a bit better with yautja fanfics and yatuja pictures in Pinterest, as I burn my own eyes without my prescription glasses
theoilspill.bsky.social
I can't sleep as I am plagued with my declining sanity.

I don't feel like reading the fics as of now.

Inner demons are in a constant war with one another.
a cartoon drawing of a person standing in a corner
ALT: a cartoon drawing of a person standing in a corner
media.tenor.com
theoilspill.bsky.social
Anyways, thank you for listening with my insane ramblings of my declining sanity
theoilspill.bsky.social
But holy shit, I feel like there's a barrier that blocks me to my path as an artist that I just couldn't get a grasp on.

I want to lash out or even punish my own hands for making me feel incapable.
theoilspill.bsky.social
A part of me just wishing if I could just cut my hands off.

But, obviously, I could never live without being able to draw, nor thinking of ideas to draw. I want to make, I want to create something, and I WANT that idea to come out, then share it with people.
theoilspill.bsky.social
I am constantly seathing with anger, that people have that passion that I WANT, I am tired, blaming other people who have grown so much as an artist, when this is all about me as a person. Yet, here I am! Blaming other people for ruining my life when they haven't done anything to me at all.
theoilspill.bsky.social
I no longer have the confidence of being able to hold a pen and letting myself do whatever my mind thinks, now... I am just scared to draw anymore.

I am so scared.

And, that drives me nuts, that I am now afraid.
theoilspill.bsky.social
It drives me insane that I no longer have the same passion as I was before. I have lost that drive of what is pushing me in pursuing arts, like, what's the fucking point ?! Of continuing art if I myself can't even hold a pen without fearing, THAT I HAVE DONE SOMETHING WRONG.
theoilspill.bsky.social
Seeing my friends following their passion as an artist, Me, I have done nothing at all. They were able to sell merches, sharing their interests, using their art to tell them that this is who they are as a person, as an artist, and their passion.

And It drives me insane -
theoilspill.bsky.social
Truely experience as they grow as an artist, while I have not done anything at all, sulking and feeling the dread as if I am running out of time. At this point, I am starting to doubt that, DO I? DESERVE TO BE AN ARTIST? when I kept on misisng the chances where I can grow as one?
theoilspill.bsky.social
Will be in a constant grief of me missing my opportunity to grow as an artist, I went to a school where I could finally get the chance to improve my art or even finading my place as artist. But, I ended up wasting my chances... I envy my friends in my old school where they can truely-
Reposted by OH GOD I'M FUCKIN LOSING IT🔞
kariitoart.bsky.social
Curious #oc🔞
*
During his 1st time w/ Bhu’ja, he wanted to try something that’s not exactly common among Yautja mates👀 — and she never says no to him… except when he asks to be on top.

#predator #yautja
Reposted by OH GOD I'M FUCKIN LOSING IT🔞
azulg.bsky.social
👁️

Predator/The eye || Alien: Earth

#AlienEarth | #predator | #yautja
Reposted by OH GOD I'M FUCKIN LOSING IT🔞
magnuspool.bsky.social
A great test awaits Xar. The question is, will he endure it… or break?
#yautja
theoilspill.bsky.social
Thank you, Melle! I appreciate your words ( ´;゚;∀;゚;) and I am very glad gou like my post! This brings me so much joy, I just wanted to say been fan of your cotl comics, and the fact you are one of the artist I was introduced to Cotl, your Au brings so much joy and Ewen I love that cunt serving sheep!
Reposted by OH GOD I'M FUCKIN LOSING IT🔞
aydiosmiopls.bsky.social
CW decapitation, improper use of a neck hole

sometimes they yap too much and sometimes narinder just needs them to shut up

at some point he wonders if its intentional(it is)
Reposted by OH GOD I'M FUCKIN LOSING IT🔞
gotatoastonmyass.bsky.social
I'm posting this one SUPER early, because i really wanna 🥺

@bamsara.bsky.social their specific brand of forplay makes me so sick in the head.
Reposted by OH GOD I'M FUCKIN LOSING IT🔞
Reposted by OH GOD I'M FUCKIN LOSING IT🔞