I saw my recently deceased friend in a dream last night. I asked him how he was here, how I was seeing him. He said he doesn't have to try, he just Is. He said I don't have to try, to just Be. I tried to go back to sleep when I woke up so I could see him again, see him more. I can still picture him
January 25, 2026 at 5:55 AM
I saw my recently deceased friend in a dream last night. I asked him how he was here, how I was seeing him. He said he doesn't have to try, he just Is. He said I don't have to try, to just Be. I tried to go back to sleep when I woke up so I could see him again, see him more. I can still picture him
Loving yourself is resistance of everything that makes you feel oppressed. Your heart continues to beat, and the most vital aspects of survival remain alive within you.
January 25, 2026 at 1:18 AM
Loving yourself is resistance of everything that makes you feel oppressed. Your heart continues to beat, and the most vital aspects of survival remain alive within you.
Everything in time and all, but if you're on the fence about going to AA, just know that I wish I had done it sooner. One of the best choices I've ever made. It took me a little while to be sure it's for me, but now I feel at home with my fellow sober people. I've given myself permission to trust.
January 21, 2026 at 4:15 AM
Everything in time and all, but if you're on the fence about going to AA, just know that I wish I had done it sooner. One of the best choices I've ever made. It took me a little while to be sure it's for me, but now I feel at home with my fellow sober people. I've given myself permission to trust.
Nothing is making me feel good right now. I feel pretty low. Smoking and drinking every time I've felt this way for most of my adult life has impaired my ability to handle these feelings. I cried earlier, wishing I could go back to abusing substances, but it doesn't work like it used to anyway.
January 19, 2026 at 4:23 AM
Nothing is making me feel good right now. I feel pretty low. Smoking and drinking every time I've felt this way for most of my adult life has impaired my ability to handle these feelings. I cried earlier, wishing I could go back to abusing substances, but it doesn't work like it used to anyway.
I recently heard someone say that we don't get to choose our emotions. That kinda blew my mind because I've spent most of my life trying to do just that
January 18, 2026 at 9:54 PM
I recently heard someone say that we don't get to choose our emotions. That kinda blew my mind because I've spent most of my life trying to do just that
I am irritated by all the things that I feel I could exert control over if I wanted to continue to be manipulative and oversteppy, but I am working on letting other people take control of their own shit instead of deluding myself into thinking I can help people who don't want to be helped
January 18, 2026 at 6:56 PM
I am irritated by all the things that I feel I could exert control over if I wanted to continue to be manipulative and oversteppy, but I am working on letting other people take control of their own shit instead of deluding myself into thinking I can help people who don't want to be helped
I just went to an AA meeting in the city that was for queer women and nonbinary and trans people. I've never felt so in love with a room full of "strangers." It's a 45 minute drive and starts 45 minutes after I get off work, but I might get an ez pass for the toll road just to enable me to go more
January 17, 2026 at 2:15 AM
I just went to an AA meeting in the city that was for queer women and nonbinary and trans people. I've never felt so in love with a room full of "strangers." It's a 45 minute drive and starts 45 minutes after I get off work, but I might get an ez pass for the toll road just to enable me to go more
This week has been kinda poop inside my head, and I feel bad texting my sponsor to pretend to care how they're doing so I can talk about my own problems. Like I do care about them, but that's not truly why I'm texting. I've been trying to prevent my relationships from feeling transactional, like I
January 15, 2026 at 2:26 PM
This week has been kinda poop inside my head, and I feel bad texting my sponsor to pretend to care how they're doing so I can talk about my own problems. Like I do care about them, but that's not truly why I'm texting. I've been trying to prevent my relationships from feeling transactional, like I
Lowering the temperature significantly while sleeping is resulting in such heavy sleep I don't want to wake up. Almost like we shouldn't be feigning productivity by creating artificially warm environments all winter and instead just slow down and rest more
January 12, 2026 at 3:16 PM
Lowering the temperature significantly while sleeping is resulting in such heavy sleep I don't want to wake up. Almost like we shouldn't be feigning productivity by creating artificially warm environments all winter and instead just slow down and rest more
I'm not sure how to have a good sense of self when I realize what an illusion self is. I've known for a while I need to just believe in something, find My Truth, but the way it's largely fabricated based on subjective factors stands in my way 😮💨
January 11, 2026 at 3:43 AM
I'm not sure how to have a good sense of self when I realize what an illusion self is. I've known for a while I need to just believe in something, find My Truth, but the way it's largely fabricated based on subjective factors stands in my way 😮💨
A friend's photograph of the total solar eclipse we viewed together, and my painting of his photograph
January 4, 2026 at 6:30 PM
A friend's photograph of the total solar eclipse we viewed together, and my painting of his photograph
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To preface this was my least favorite MKAL ever. The sections were just kind of a slog, and I had to customize it more than I like, however- I am still proud I finished this absolute BEAST (the final bind off was over 1,600 stitches alone)
And now on to simpler things!
And now on to simpler things!
January 4, 2026 at 5:11 PM
To preface this was my least favorite MKAL ever. The sections were just kind of a slog, and I had to customize it more than I like, however- I am still proud I finished this absolute BEAST (the final bind off was over 1,600 stitches alone)
And now on to simpler things!
And now on to simpler things!
The nearest sensory deprivation float provider, which was very well reviewed, went out of business. It was expensive but located in the richest county in the country. People live here to work, but that lifestyle isn't exactly conducive to meditation or relaxation....
December 28, 2025 at 10:26 PM
The nearest sensory deprivation float provider, which was very well reviewed, went out of business. It was expensive but located in the richest county in the country. People live here to work, but that lifestyle isn't exactly conducive to meditation or relaxation....
Setting boundaries is one of the hardest things for me to do in a romantic relationship. I can be convinced my needs are flexible, but they're truly not. Ultimately, I will find someone who understands, respects, and admires that.
December 27, 2025 at 12:24 AM
Setting boundaries is one of the hardest things for me to do in a romantic relationship. I can be convinced my needs are flexible, but they're truly not. Ultimately, I will find someone who understands, respects, and admires that.
I just realized that when I hear about tragedy, I feel morally obligated to pause and channel the pain and suffering of those involved. I try to imagine so deeply what they must be feeling. I truly feel like that's what I can and should do to acknowledge their loss and pain. But I suffer, and do
December 26, 2025 at 9:32 PM
I just realized that when I hear about tragedy, I feel morally obligated to pause and channel the pain and suffering of those involved. I try to imagine so deeply what they must be feeling. I truly feel like that's what I can and should do to acknowledge their loss and pain. But I suffer, and do
I honestly just want to curl into a ball and cry for hours over everyone I've lost. I'm not strong enough for this world
December 25, 2025 at 3:02 PM
I honestly just want to curl into a ball and cry for hours over everyone I've lost. I'm not strong enough for this world
I just realized that if having a positive opinion of me stands in direct contrast to your own ego, you won't
December 25, 2025 at 5:53 AM
I just realized that if having a positive opinion of me stands in direct contrast to your own ego, you won't
Driving an unfamiliar car...it has a giant button/knob in front of the gear shift to control what is selected on the display screen. It feels like a throwback to the scroll wheel on a blackberry 🦳🦳🦳
December 23, 2025 at 3:07 PM
Driving an unfamiliar car...it has a giant button/knob in front of the gear shift to control what is selected on the display screen. It feels like a throwback to the scroll wheel on a blackberry 🦳🦳🦳
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Happy birthday Jean-Michel Basquiat
December 22, 2025 at 5:19 PM
Happy birthday Jean-Michel Basquiat
The day they put a fat model on TPIR is the day I can die happy
December 13, 2025 at 2:24 PM
The day they put a fat model on TPIR is the day I can die happy
Cut my hair for the first time in over a year. I usually like it short but had lost touch with any consistent sense of preference or identity I guess... I'm back?
December 13, 2025 at 2:19 PM
Cut my hair for the first time in over a year. I usually like it short but had lost touch with any consistent sense of preference or identity I guess... I'm back?
You think bell hooks has watched all of sex in the city
December 6, 2025 at 3:19 AM
You think bell hooks has watched all of sex in the city
Trees that appear to be made of bone
November 30, 2025 at 5:47 PM
Trees that appear to be made of bone