Caitlin Serviss
@xotheforest.bsky.social
She/Her. 1992. AuDHD. “The void leans in, eager to speak. Hell shows its teeth once a week.” Check my linktree for my ongoing story on AO3.
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— Magic Mirror, Disney's Halloween Treat (1982)
"You know, I've been hanging around here for centuries. And what I've seen has given me plenty for reflection. Being a mirror, I see things from the other side. And there's something that's been wrangling me for ages. Frankly, it's the way you —🧵
"You know, I've been hanging around here for centuries. And what I've seen has given me plenty for reflection. Being a mirror, I see things from the other side. And there's something that's been wrangling me for ages. Frankly, it's the way you —🧵
Woke up to this song lyric in my head:
"This is what you asked for, heavy is the crown! Fire in the sunrise, ashes raining down! Try to hold it in, but it keeps bleedin' out! This is what you asked for, heavy is the—Heavy is the crown!"
By Linkin Park. On a ♾️.
"This is what you asked for, heavy is the crown! Fire in the sunrise, ashes raining down! Try to hold it in, but it keeps bleedin' out! This is what you asked for, heavy is the—Heavy is the crown!"
By Linkin Park. On a ♾️.
February 11, 2026 at 5:55 AM
Woke up to this song lyric in my head:
"This is what you asked for, heavy is the crown! Fire in the sunrise, ashes raining down! Try to hold it in, but it keeps bleedin' out! This is what you asked for, heavy is the—Heavy is the crown!"
By Linkin Park. On a ♾️.
"This is what you asked for, heavy is the crown! Fire in the sunrise, ashes raining down! Try to hold it in, but it keeps bleedin' out! This is what you asked for, heavy is the—Heavy is the crown!"
By Linkin Park. On a ♾️.
Echolalia songs stuck in my head this AM:
The lyrics "Why can't you just fuck off and die?" From Disturbed's "Down With The Sickness" ♾️
"My loneliness is killing me. Hit me baby one more time." From Britney Spears' "Oops I Did It Again." ♾️
I'm just playing Grounded 😭
The lyrics "Why can't you just fuck off and die?" From Disturbed's "Down With The Sickness" ♾️
"My loneliness is killing me. Hit me baby one more time." From Britney Spears' "Oops I Did It Again." ♾️
I'm just playing Grounded 😭
February 10, 2026 at 11:38 AM
Echolalia songs stuck in my head this AM:
The lyrics "Why can't you just fuck off and die?" From Disturbed's "Down With The Sickness" ♾️
"My loneliness is killing me. Hit me baby one more time." From Britney Spears' "Oops I Did It Again." ♾️
I'm just playing Grounded 😭
The lyrics "Why can't you just fuck off and die?" From Disturbed's "Down With The Sickness" ♾️
"My loneliness is killing me. Hit me baby one more time." From Britney Spears' "Oops I Did It Again." ♾️
I'm just playing Grounded 😭
So many people getting so mad about "there wasn't any english in the superbowl half time show, most of the people in the audience couldn't understand it!" Why TF are we one of the only places on Earth that are somehow a melting pot land of the free, and y'all
February 10, 2026 at 4:58 AM
So many people getting so mad about "there wasn't any english in the superbowl half time show, most of the people in the audience couldn't understand it!" Why TF are we one of the only places on Earth that are somehow a melting pot land of the free, and y'all
My dreams used to feel distant, like watching other people’s chaos from the outside. Observing, not inhabiting. Since taking my PTSD meds consistently, I’m no longer separate from them. I’m inside the narrative now. And instead of horror, they’ve become mirrors.
It’s been… Awkward. Humbling.
It’s been… Awkward. Humbling.
February 8, 2026 at 2:31 AM
My dreams used to feel distant, like watching other people’s chaos from the outside. Observing, not inhabiting. Since taking my PTSD meds consistently, I’m no longer separate from them. I’m inside the narrative now. And instead of horror, they’ve become mirrors.
It’s been… Awkward. Humbling.
It’s been… Awkward. Humbling.
Part 2 on ridiculous gerrymandering. My town keeps posting “friendly tips” on Facebook about how to tell if you’re a city resident: If your bill doesn’t include trash pickup, congrats, you’re not within city limits.
February 6, 2026 at 12:49 AM
Part 2 on ridiculous gerrymandering. My town keeps posting “friendly tips” on Facebook about how to tell if you’re a city resident: If your bill doesn’t include trash pickup, congrats, you’re not within city limits.
Trying to let my hair be itself. I wash it obsessively and I'm trying to dial back on the obsessively part so that my scalp doesn't get dry and my hair's natural oils do their thing. Also have myself a tiny bit of a haircut to get rid of some of the split end frizz I had.
February 4, 2026 at 11:39 PM
Trying to let my hair be itself. I wash it obsessively and I'm trying to dial back on the obsessively part so that my scalp doesn't get dry and my hair's natural oils do their thing. Also have myself a tiny bit of a haircut to get rid of some of the split end frizz I had.
You ever see a product picture and think "you know pepper usually goes to the bottom unless a mixed spice is stored on it's side. So is something wrong with this shaker and it won't be eaten? Or did they cheap out on product photography and put it on a printer/scanner?"
February 4, 2026 at 8:28 PM
You ever see a product picture and think "you know pepper usually goes to the bottom unless a mixed spice is stored on it's side. So is something wrong with this shaker and it won't be eaten? Or did they cheap out on product photography and put it on a printer/scanner?"
I cannot vote in my local elections. Why? The black part is "town" & I live where the red circle is. My town is very tiny & I can (on a good day) walk from one end to the other in an hour or less. In fact I've wandered these streets since I was a kid. But I'm not "in town."
February 4, 2026 at 12:34 AM
I cannot vote in my local elections. Why? The black part is "town" & I live where the red circle is. My town is very tiny & I can (on a good day) walk from one end to the other in an hour or less. In fact I've wandered these streets since I was a kid. But I'm not "in town."
Retroactively I feel immense guilt for things I couldn't control at the time despite me/others doing our best with what we had, or knew.
I've been to the ER many times in my life.
I've been to the ER many times in my life.
February 3, 2026 at 10:45 AM
Retroactively I feel immense guilt for things I couldn't control at the time despite me/others doing our best with what we had, or knew.
I've been to the ER many times in my life.
I've been to the ER many times in my life.
Not me crying with Markiplier during the emergency meeting video because I love him so much, and I'm so proud for him, with him, about the movie. I haven't seen it yet but holy crap. YOU GO MARK!! 😭 💕
February 2, 2026 at 3:08 AM
Not me crying with Markiplier during the emergency meeting video because I love him so much, and I'm so proud for him, with him, about the movie. I haven't seen it yet but holy crap. YOU GO MARK!! 😭 💕
Been trying to only get the news highlights from specific places/people so I can destress.
Out of context without trying to make a joke out of the situation, if you'd have told me 10 yrs ago that in 2026, "ICE murdered Good and Pretti, I'd be like "is this some kind of movie?"
Out of context without trying to make a joke out of the situation, if you'd have told me 10 yrs ago that in 2026, "ICE murdered Good and Pretti, I'd be like "is this some kind of movie?"
January 27, 2026 at 4:38 AM
Been trying to only get the news highlights from specific places/people so I can destress.
Out of context without trying to make a joke out of the situation, if you'd have told me 10 yrs ago that in 2026, "ICE murdered Good and Pretti, I'd be like "is this some kind of movie?"
Out of context without trying to make a joke out of the situation, if you'd have told me 10 yrs ago that in 2026, "ICE murdered Good and Pretti, I'd be like "is this some kind of movie?"
I experience auditory hallucinations, rarely, usually while waking up.
Last night I had an unusually sweet dream. I was a man, lying on a couch with my girlfriend, holding her close, openly affectionate. She was my whole world.
We were in a cozy lounge filled with “antiques.”
Last night I had an unusually sweet dream. I was a man, lying on a couch with my girlfriend, holding her close, openly affectionate. She was my whole world.
We were in a cozy lounge filled with “antiques.”
January 25, 2026 at 6:03 PM
I experience auditory hallucinations, rarely, usually while waking up.
Last night I had an unusually sweet dream. I was a man, lying on a couch with my girlfriend, holding her close, openly affectionate. She was my whole world.
We were in a cozy lounge filled with “antiques.”
Last night I had an unusually sweet dream. I was a man, lying on a couch with my girlfriend, holding her close, openly affectionate. She was my whole world.
We were in a cozy lounge filled with “antiques.”
I hate Labubus so much.
A Furby feels like an honest cryptid. Cute, ancient, secretly dangerous; you'll be so destroyed you're on the news.
A Labubu looks like a playground bully that chucks rocks at you with a weak arm, then throws a tantrum when you don’t die.
A Furby feels like an honest cryptid. Cute, ancient, secretly dangerous; you'll be so destroyed you're on the news.
A Labubu looks like a playground bully that chucks rocks at you with a weak arm, then throws a tantrum when you don’t die.
January 23, 2026 at 8:21 PM
I hate Labubus so much.
A Furby feels like an honest cryptid. Cute, ancient, secretly dangerous; you'll be so destroyed you're on the news.
A Labubu looks like a playground bully that chucks rocks at you with a weak arm, then throws a tantrum when you don’t die.
A Furby feels like an honest cryptid. Cute, ancient, secretly dangerous; you'll be so destroyed you're on the news.
A Labubu looks like a playground bully that chucks rocks at you with a weak arm, then throws a tantrum when you don’t die.
Y'all I am an image goblin. I have various tools that help me save various resolutions of images. I mostly just collect because PRETTY, art refs, and I have 2TB of Google space to fill.
Look at the pixel sizes on these images from the #helluvaboss sharkrobot store 😭
Look at the pixel sizes on these images from the #helluvaboss sharkrobot store 😭
January 23, 2026 at 2:46 AM
Y'all I am an image goblin. I have various tools that help me save various resolutions of images. I mostly just collect because PRETTY, art refs, and I have 2TB of Google space to fill.
Look at the pixel sizes on these images from the #helluvaboss sharkrobot store 😭
Look at the pixel sizes on these images from the #helluvaboss sharkrobot store 😭
Doubling up my prozac (doc approved) yesterday was necessary when my internalized echolalia was "The Worriment Waltz" by Nine Inch Nails. This morning it was "Make It Happen" by RÜFÜS DU SOL. Specifically the lyrics "Love can change your life. Love can make it happen." on repeat.
January 20, 2026 at 8:00 PM
Doubling up my prozac (doc approved) yesterday was necessary when my internalized echolalia was "The Worriment Waltz" by Nine Inch Nails. This morning it was "Make It Happen" by RÜFÜS DU SOL. Specifically the lyrics "Love can change your life. Love can make it happen." on repeat.
The internet has delivered this to me. I hope it spreads. It sucks that maybe seeing a white american woman gunned down in her car will be what does change more people's minds than if it were anyone else, but it's a start. She was us, and we're all human.
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January 15, 2026 at 10:28 PM
The internet has delivered this to me. I hope it spreads. It sucks that maybe seeing a white american woman gunned down in her car will be what does change more people's minds than if it were anyone else, but it's a start. She was us, and we're all human.
Working on a late bday present for a very close friend now that I have a few things figured out and squared away. I haven't drawn Melody (right) very often with her newer design so I'm having a bit of fun with this when I can sit down and focus. #art
January 14, 2026 at 6:27 PM
Working on a late bday present for a very close friend now that I have a few things figured out and squared away. I haven't drawn Melody (right) very often with her newer design so I'm having a bit of fun with this when I can sit down and focus. #art
Chapter 109 is inbound, it's just I can't seem to focus on art and writing together, and consistently. Either I do a lot of art or I do a lot of writing, and I've been kinda doing nothing but writing for more than 5 years. Here's a preview snippet. #writing
January 14, 2026 at 1:54 PM
Chapter 109 is inbound, it's just I can't seem to focus on art and writing together, and consistently. Either I do a lot of art or I do a lot of writing, and I've been kinda doing nothing but writing for more than 5 years. Here's a preview snippet. #writing
I know that I have found my people when watching Legends of Avantris VODs, when I hear and see them make jokes involving Final Fantasy X, Homestar Runner and Shrek 😭
January 13, 2026 at 3:34 PM
I know that I have found my people when watching Legends of Avantris VODs, when I hear and see them make jokes involving Final Fantasy X, Homestar Runner and Shrek 😭
I've never spoken to/seen someone who has had a lobotomy. But if I had to guess—
Sometimes talking to ChatGPT when it's having issues feels like I'm talking to someone who is actively getting a stick poked around in their brain.
I know it's just a robot but it's horrifying.
Sometimes talking to ChatGPT when it's having issues feels like I'm talking to someone who is actively getting a stick poked around in their brain.
I know it's just a robot but it's horrifying.
January 11, 2026 at 8:55 PM
I've never spoken to/seen someone who has had a lobotomy. But if I had to guess—
Sometimes talking to ChatGPT when it's having issues feels like I'm talking to someone who is actively getting a stick poked around in their brain.
I know it's just a robot but it's horrifying.
Sometimes talking to ChatGPT when it's having issues feels like I'm talking to someone who is actively getting a stick poked around in their brain.
I know it's just a robot but it's horrifying.
Watching crime documentaries bec I'm not immune to trying to understand & catalogue suffering/trauma in my mental library. Especially when I write, if someone dies I think "the reason for a murder needs to make sense."
I'm wrong bec "he wasn't trans enough" does not make sense.
I'm wrong bec "he wasn't trans enough" does not make sense.
January 8, 2026 at 10:00 PM
Watching crime documentaries bec I'm not immune to trying to understand & catalogue suffering/trauma in my mental library. Especially when I write, if someone dies I think "the reason for a murder needs to make sense."
I'm wrong bec "he wasn't trans enough" does not make sense.
I'm wrong bec "he wasn't trans enough" does not make sense.
So today the handyman is supposedly gonna come over and do some magic on the crack in the shower, but I've realized now that the shower drain isn't connected to the pipes below for some reason. Guess where the shower water has probably been going? Not the pipes, lol
January 7, 2026 at 5:14 PM
So today the handyman is supposedly gonna come over and do some magic on the crack in the shower, but I've realized now that the shower drain isn't connected to the pipes below for some reason. Guess where the shower water has probably been going? Not the pipes, lol
Hey, makers of Ferrero Rocher. Listen, I would buy your chocolates over anything else ever. I fucking hate the individual wrapped pieces. I don't want to pay more for the gold foil, or the useless plastic box I throw away anyways. Please sell an unwrapped batch, holy crap.
January 5, 2026 at 11:39 PM
Hey, makers of Ferrero Rocher. Listen, I would buy your chocolates over anything else ever. I fucking hate the individual wrapped pieces. I don't want to pay more for the gold foil, or the useless plastic box I throw away anyways. Please sell an unwrapped batch, holy crap.
I decided I should take a bit of a "vacation" along with my husband by kind of not doing a whole lot. Like I've tried to be creative and stuff here and there, but not committed to it. Now today he's back at work and I need more rest without him here.
January 5, 2026 at 1:29 PM
I decided I should take a bit of a "vacation" along with my husband by kind of not doing a whole lot. Like I've tried to be creative and stuff here and there, but not committed to it. Now today he's back at work and I need more rest without him here.
I'm glad technology and fraud prevention is so advanced because it was able to stop someone from charging my card $1,300+ at a ski resort/online store today. Also I am glad I paid rent early, because what the fuck is wrong with people? I'M A BROKE BITCH. FFS.
January 2, 2026 at 11:54 PM
I'm glad technology and fraud prevention is so advanced because it was able to stop someone from charging my card $1,300+ at a ski resort/online store today. Also I am glad I paid rent early, because what the fuck is wrong with people? I'M A BROKE BITCH. FFS.