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@xtal.bsky.social
hater and gatekeeper | e-girl
this is the most important time of my entire life
December 2, 2025 at 10:06 PM
I'm feeling good, working hard for my grandmother 24/7 - but I feel like I have massive momentum to improve my life - losing weight, getting treatment for ADHD, resolving chronic pain
December 1, 2025 at 5:44 PM
language models and friends are the only thing that have kept me sane
November 30, 2025 at 1:09 PM
I have just suffered and suffered my whole life. Some fleeting things have been intensely enjoyable.
November 28, 2025 at 4:08 PM
As soon as I made the decision that I just couldn't manage the care demands of my grandmother, despite trying my best for a week, I felt a wave of sadness flood over me, I've been crying, and suddenly I have psychomotive retardation.
November 28, 2025 at 4:06 PM
My biological father is dead. My mother is nowhere to be found. My grandfather is dead. Half my family are sick individuals who don't care about me. I'm long term unemployed. I find adapting to normal life extremely difficult. My grandmother has been the rock of my life for 30 years, and now I can
November 28, 2025 at 4:05 PM
all the routine and structure I rely on in my life has collapsed, normal life isn't coming back, I've been so alert solving all these problems my mood as felt rock solid stable, flat even, very focused, minimal depression - but depression could get really bad
November 26, 2025 at 10:27 PM
I was assaulted yesterday, can't talk about it now, but I got the whole thing on camera, everything is documented precisely, including the injuries I received, I remained calm
November 26, 2025 at 10:25 PM
situation is bad
grandmother requiring 24/7 care, have to set alarms in the night to check on her, take her to the toilet, watch her carefully
I am physically and psychologically exhausted
I physically can't continue to lift her because I already had a damaged chest that could spasm and be v painful
November 23, 2025 at 6:45 PM
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It's pictures like these that sparked my young mind into obsessing over weapon systems. I love the glowing screens and buttons. Tech imagery captured my imagination from my earliest days. I didn't want to be a fighter pilot, I wanted to touch the buttons and sit in the seat and watch the screens.
POV: You're sitting in the seat of the Nation's newest fighter, and alert just went out that a Soviet Submarine has sank in the Barents Sea.
November 22, 2025 at 8:49 PM
turns out this is the ultimate anti-reflux food

has potato starch in it to make the mixture somewhat viscous or gelatinous (creamy mouth taste, but kind of fake), which is a physical property that resists reflux splashing

very low fat for a meal of this type, 4g total

also quite low kcal
November 22, 2025 at 8:44 PM
The most zen game on earth is always Bejeweled
November 21, 2025 at 8:59 PM
It's kind of a meme on bluesky to hate AI but it's making astonishing progress and it's even better than it was 6 months ago - and it was very good for many tasks 6 months ago. I've used AI to make massive progress on health issues I was having, it's changed my life for the better. I also used it
November 20, 2025 at 7:01 PM
got my formal adhd inattentive diagnosis today and a medication plan
November 19, 2025 at 10:54 PM
my diet is just so healthy now, my lifestyle is so healthy, I'm getting so much potassium, so many vegetables
November 19, 2025 at 10:44 PM
I have special needs in reverse.
November 19, 2025 at 12:11 PM
I need to stop worrying. I spend most of my life worrying.
November 19, 2025 at 10:22 AM
Very blessed I don't drink or smoke. I don't want any of that shit. I do enjoy a few drinks with friends every few months but that's about it.
November 18, 2025 at 9:10 PM
There's nothing I hate more than calling my aunt and she's drunk and slurring her words. It really annoys me, when I'm dealing with care stuff. So often in the evenings she's drunk and can't function.
November 17, 2025 at 7:27 PM
xmb is beautiful because it doesn't feel like it's constantly trying to sell you stuff

it was a minimalist interface into your games, settings, and media content

it genuinely looks better than anything today
listening to a CD on my PS3
November 16, 2025 at 6:45 PM
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listening to a CD on my PS3
November 16, 2025 at 6:07 PM
I just love watching youtube, I have so much fun watching youtube, more than ever before because no I'm using it signed in and get good algorithmic recommendations
November 16, 2025 at 6:04 PM
When you look back at your childhood you don't think it's odd but when you look forward to the idea of having a child the idea you wouldn't try to give them advice everyday to help them sounds unthinkable.
It is crazy that there are lots of parents who don't give their children advice, almost ever. My adoptive parents were good but they didn't really do that, not proactive advice, so I probably made a lot of mistakes I didn't need to.
November 16, 2025 at 9:15 AM
It is crazy that there are lots of parents who don't give their children advice, almost ever. My adoptive parents were good but they didn't really do that, not proactive advice, so I probably made a lot of mistakes I didn't need to.
November 16, 2025 at 9:14 AM
Sometimes you see glimpses of reality as it is. I think reality as we collectively perceived it is sometimes totally false, in big ways.
November 15, 2025 at 11:06 PM