Drool-worthy adaptation. 🤤

Big brain take.

Please drop the fitness routine? 🙏🥺

Gift idea: firefighter control keyset.

Don't forget to get your stockings stuffed!

CounterPhish trainers stroking out rn.

Thanks for taking us all with you!

It has been so easy to dismiss the things I want for myself as pure, impossible fantasy. When I meet someone who lives it, Envy makes change an imperative. Sometimes that imperative demands a hard choice. Change, now, or regret it. Sometimes the change requires work. Damn do I have some work to do.

Even if the person is putting up a front, the makeup has to come off, the performance has to end, the envy itself is real. Even if the object of envy is not entirely authentic, the response is pointing at something I want for myself.

When the object of envy doesn't appear real it's easy to say it's just fantasy. But when I meet a breathing person who's right in front of me being what I can finally see to want for myself and I can literally touch them... How can I ignore that?

Once I figured out that unease was envy and learned to start separating out desire so much of my life clicked into focus. Gender, sexuality, kink, polyamory, even career suddenly felt less question-blobs and more a wilderness markers. Someone has made it this far and left a guidepost on the trail.

It was easy to ignore envy for so long because it can be masked by desire. I would look at people I find attractive and feel that desire, but something else, an unease crept in. I spent years trying to put a name on it.

Envy has been the greatest tool of self discovery and personal change in my life. It points, highlights and underlines what I actually want for myself. It can be so difficult to visualize much less explain what I actually want my life to be.