ok im too awkward to poast the rest but

eden genuinely gets off or craves to be Focked by a certain individual but

can recognize levels of attractiveness but not feel sexual attraction.

they benefit from being the top/dominant position in sex bc they get their powerplay. when they bottom its like. really hard to crack them bc theyre still viewing it as a sort of powerplay. brat/power bottom vibes.

"why do i have to touch myself i have plenty of people who want to touch me lol" (npd nod) but

yeah no eden doesn't jerk off and has no desire to. they don't get off from doing things on their own. it's only with a partner does eden feel any spark of high.

and when eden looks at others, they

it's not like "i'm getting hard in my pants" it's just an overall feeling of satisfaction.

like eden is hardly at all interested in sex if they are alone. like they won't touch themselves or jerk off. they see no reason to and they think it's a bit pathetic bc in their mind also it's like

it's funny bc eden really comes off like a sex addict, but that's not really the case? at least in most scenarios. eden engages in sex as a form of powerplay, basically like a show of dominance. to say that they don't get sexual gratification out of it would be a tiny lie—they do feel a high, but

- i feel like mothers are often robbed of their autonomy when they have a child, or at least there is a feeling/element of that. their body changes, their feelings change, their lives change after that, a lot of people unfortunately become reduced to solely that label: a mother.

follow up… garden uu

- individual, bc all of these traits and abilities they adopt, its not theirs. never was. so to evolve and survive, they are growing even further from their original self