i loved and cared the best i can

i just wanted to love and feel safe enough to love. but i havent felt safe for too long.

and then it becomes even more devastating when the built up resentment makes you hurt them in return. i cant live like that

its so exhausting and damaging to slowly but surely lose yourself trying to love someone when things dont change for the better even after so long. even worse when you know theyre a good person but they still keep on hurting you bc of how fucked your dynamic ended up being.

probably rsd idk, shame

:^))))

when will my meds arrive holy shit

its a queer romantic bond tnx