But still, my wife wouldn't let me work. She needs me. My kids me. I just want to curl like a ball and just cry sometimes. What should I do. I wanted to be useful for my family

I feel very insecure because I didnt finish my degree. Im not sure what kind of job can I land. I need a high paying job because I have 2 kids now. I got lucky with my previous job. Im not sure if Ill be able to get lucky again. Who will even hire me. i could up myself always but who would want

I always feel like Im a burden. I always talk in my own head. Lots of what ifs. What is the right path for me. I feel lost

Ive always wondered if that the burden of being a husband. A dad. I should just stand tall and walk it off right? What matter most is my family is happy. I mean they are happy now too that I am 24/7 with them. But... Idk

I have no one to talk to. I dont want to trouble my wife anymore.

It was too much for me to handle.

Too much that I get into panic attack twice in a month. It was horrifying. I felt like I wanted to die. I NEED to die

Sure my job is stressful, often the source for my anger issue. But the pay is good. I could always buy whatever I want for my family. Pretty dress my wife. Cute clothing for kids. And whatever game I wanted.

But I couldn't. Not after Noah came, wife's cafe move into new lot

The business is okay. But not enough for ourselves. As painful as it may be, we need to pay off business's commitment first then take whatever is left for us. And its always just enough for us to pay MY commitment mostly. Im not sure how long I can hold on like this

I quit my job because I wanted to help my wife. It has been 9 months since. Im not sure if Im really helping her

Im angry at myself. Because of this helpless feelings. But she keeps assuring me that I am helping her. And she felt grateful for my presence

Mcm ni ke perasaan seorg surirumah? To always feel helpless?