The good news is that to me seemed like five years had passed, but in reality it was only a month or two. The bad news is that I was gone for a real month or two.

Exah. This pmd character has been living in my mind for too long but I couldn't somehow complete any of them arts, so here it is, the closest to the end sketch. I hope to finish at least one art that I am currently working on with him, but I am not sure.

#pokemonart #pmd #braixen #horirial

I haven't drawn characters for a long time, but today I feel especially crazy, so I tried to sketch how It felt. Living without a 'self-continuity' can be extremely... Tiring.

#pokemon #art #zoroark

The frost. I'll try to make it as cold as I can. It's a little bit naive... Everything is almost fine but I'm still feeling cold and dark.

I've been gone for a long time. But I'm back again. A lot has happened during this time, illness, surgery... I had to rethink a lot. But now I think I can really express my emotions in pictures. At least I will try to do it.

At first it was difficult to admit this to myself, but it is true... I will not try to squeeze pictures out of myself. But if something touches my soul I'll probably do something. Or I'll write about something. After all, I play games a lot. So... I'll continue to do something.

There were a lot of self-deprecating things that I wanted to say. And yes, I am a creature, I am tired of denying it. I am relinquishing my role as a creator. I am not given the ability to create. I love... No, I exist to collect information. And now I'll play this part right.

I don't know what I expected with my memory... But I forgot even more. It's awkward to whine about this again, but if I don't do this I'll be lying to myself first and foremost. I have no idea what to do. And again I doubt whether I should want something. Again... Eh...

I forgot... I forgot everything again. Eh. Just having roughly understood how to be free and think openly or something like that. Everything... Everything sank into the abyss. It's disgusting...

So I'm gonna try to do like a mini sitcom comic or something. So I'll be doing some simplified designs and stuff. Let's see, maybe at least this way I can do something interesting, or how bad I can be at comedy.

I live in a strange, accelerated, looping, isolated world. Every attempt I make to fit into society becomes obsolete before I can implement it. And then a reset occurs and everything starts from the beginning. This is difficult to work with.

PMD OC, Sinhra. He is gardener in GoHV. Visually impaired but has good hearing and feeling. I don't know what else can be said about him here.

At the edge of the universe, in a place where there is no space and time, a miniature world is drifting. This entire world is the Guild of Hollow Wind and its surroundings. A quiet place, of eternal sunset or sunrise. It's my AU PMD GoHW. Not my best work, but it is what it is.

I feel like I've experienced some kind of exceptional dose of delirium. Brrr.

I have seen a lot, even too much to be greatly surprised by anything. But life manages to surprise me time and time again. Fight in your dream with the 3D interface of the program for the right to your own dream with parallel events developing in the world generated by the dream and the interface...

Like when I ask the mental question "what do I want to do now" a list of goals that I must achieve immediately comes to my mind. And it is extremely difficult to understand what I even could want at this moment.

Why is it so hard for me to want something? Why does it seem like my body itself is rebelling against me being free and doing what I want..? Like I MUST to improve and strive for something. There are difficulties even when thinking "what do I want" This is so crooked.

This is art to my PMD AU. PMD GoHW. I enjoyed drawing this and was pleased with the result. I will write many of my strange thoughts and sometimes post such sketches here. Let us begin.