Now I'm on my journey to heal. I hope that after my treatment I'll be able to become a gynecologist with a specialty in sexual violence.

As result of my PTSD & depression, I tried to commit suicide once. I immediately regretted taking the OD. And I feel guilty for putting people around me in such a hard situation. I still feel shame about it, but I wanted to share my story to break the taboo/silence. #ItGetsBetter

I've had my fair share of physical injuries as result of the abuse (bruises, bruised ribs, sprained limbs). I don't have a good self esteem or self confidence. I developed PTSD and depression (including automutilation and suicidality) as result of my trauma's.

I'm struggling with shame and blame about the abuse. The hardest part is that I regularly had genital responses during the sexual abuse. I often feel disgusted and betrayed by my own body.

One of my abusers made footage (videos and photos) of the abuse. He even distributed it on the internet. Today I still wonder how many sickly people have seen this footage. It's a nauseating idea that these images were made, that they exist and that they were distributed.

I was sexually abused by a relative for multiple years, which started when I was a toddler. When that abuser stopped, another relative started abusing me for multiple years. I was raped once by one of my mom's boyfriends. I was also raped by a group of strangers.