4LeifClover
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4LeifClover
@4leifclover.bsky.social
· Dec 15
Hi there!
I’m Leif, aka 4LeifClover:
creator and proud member of havenminds.org,
developer and curator of TLATA.net,
and passionate mental health advocate fueled by the fire to spark soul-stirring ripples of genuine connection with everyone I encounter.
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I’m Leif, aka 4LeifClover:
creator and proud member of havenminds.org,
developer and curator of TLATA.net,
and passionate mental health advocate fueled by the fire to spark soul-stirring ripples of genuine connection with everyone I encounter.
🍀
When your baseline has been stress, peace starts to look extravagant.
January 20, 2026 at 1:36 PM
When your baseline has been stress, peace starts to look extravagant.
So many of us learned that desire had consequences.
That wanting meant overreaching, being selfish, asking for too much.
The wanting is genuine. But the shame was learned.
That wanting meant overreaching, being selfish, asking for too much.
The wanting is genuine. But the shame was learned.
January 19, 2026 at 1:16 PM
So many of us learned that desire had consequences.
That wanting meant overreaching, being selfish, asking for too much.
The wanting is genuine. But the shame was learned.
That wanting meant overreaching, being selfish, asking for too much.
The wanting is genuine. But the shame was learned.
Invisible effort still drains your real battery.
January 16, 2026 at 9:35 PM
Invisible effort still drains your real battery.
You can sleep and still wake up exhausted.
Because rest doesn’t always reach the places that hurt.
The body remembers what the calendar ignores.
Because rest doesn’t always reach the places that hurt.
The body remembers what the calendar ignores.
January 15, 2026 at 2:24 PM
You can sleep and still wake up exhausted.
Because rest doesn’t always reach the places that hurt.
The body remembers what the calendar ignores.
Because rest doesn’t always reach the places that hurt.
The body remembers what the calendar ignores.
Not everything that drains you leaves a visible mark.
Some days the work is just holding yourself together long enough to do one thing.
Some days the work is just holding yourself together long enough to do one thing.
January 14, 2026 at 12:49 PM
Not everything that drains you leaves a visible mark.
Some days the work is just holding yourself together long enough to do one thing.
Some days the work is just holding yourself together long enough to do one thing.
Being “reliable” is often just survival with better optics.
It keeps you useful, distracted, needed.
But sometimes it comes from fear of what shows up when everything finally slows down, and staying busy feels like the only way to keep it contained.
It keeps you useful, distracted, needed.
But sometimes it comes from fear of what shows up when everything finally slows down, and staying busy feels like the only way to keep it contained.
January 13, 2026 at 1:41 PM
Being “reliable” is often just survival with better optics.
It keeps you useful, distracted, needed.
But sometimes it comes from fear of what shows up when everything finally slows down, and staying busy feels like the only way to keep it contained.
It keeps you useful, distracted, needed.
But sometimes it comes from fear of what shows up when everything finally slows down, and staying busy feels like the only way to keep it contained.
Exhaustion doesn’t always come from what you did today.
Sometimes it’s the backlog your body has been carrying for years.
So it’s no wonder you’re tired before the day even begins.
Sometimes it’s the backlog your body has been carrying for years.
So it’s no wonder you’re tired before the day even begins.
January 12, 2026 at 1:29 PM
Exhaustion doesn’t always come from what you did today.
Sometimes it’s the backlog your body has been carrying for years.
So it’s no wonder you’re tired before the day even begins.
Sometimes it’s the backlog your body has been carrying for years.
So it’s no wonder you’re tired before the day even begins.
Not every pause needs to be explained or justified.
Sometimes the body just needs time to arrive before the mind decides anything.
Hovering is still a form of being present.
Sometimes the body just needs time to arrive before the mind decides anything.
Hovering is still a form of being present.
January 9, 2026 at 1:30 PM
Not every pause needs to be explained or justified.
Sometimes the body just needs time to arrive before the mind decides anything.
Hovering is still a form of being present.
Sometimes the body just needs time to arrive before the mind decides anything.
Hovering is still a form of being present.
Growth talk hits different when you’re still tending wounds.
I’m not avoiding change…I’m just respecting the cost of the last year.
Care comes before momentum.
I’m not avoiding change…I’m just respecting the cost of the last year.
Care comes before momentum.
January 7, 2026 at 1:11 PM
Growth talk hits different when you’re still tending wounds.
I’m not avoiding change…I’m just respecting the cost of the last year.
Care comes before momentum.
I’m not avoiding change…I’m just respecting the cost of the last year.
Care comes before momentum.
I’m not stuck because I don’t care.
I’m stuck because I care too much to pretend certainty.
I’m stuck because I care too much to pretend certainty.
January 7, 2026 at 1:56 AM
I’m not stuck because I don’t care.
I’m stuck because I care too much to pretend certainty.
I’m stuck because I care too much to pretend certainty.
Starting over is a myth some of us were never offered.
Most of the time it’s just continuation with a different date.
And continuing takes its own kind of strength.
Most of the time it’s just continuation with a different date.
And continuing takes its own kind of strength.
January 7, 2026 at 1:54 AM
Starting over is a myth some of us were never offered.
Most of the time it’s just continuation with a different date.
And continuing takes its own kind of strength.
Most of the time it’s just continuation with a different date.
And continuing takes its own kind of strength.
Yearly recaps always assume there was a version worth replaying.
But some years are better treated like drafts you don’t reopen.
“I made it” is the only metric that matters right now.
But some years are better treated like drafts you don’t reopen.
“I made it” is the only metric that matters right now.
December 31, 2025 at 1:39 PM
Yearly recaps always assume there was a version worth replaying.
But some years are better treated like drafts you don’t reopen.
“I made it” is the only metric that matters right now.
But some years are better treated like drafts you don’t reopen.
“I made it” is the only metric that matters right now.
After is when everything you postponed comes due.
The feelings, the fatigue, the weight you couldn’t afford to feel yet.
No wonder it hits all at once.
The feelings, the fatigue, the weight you couldn’t afford to feel yet.
No wonder it hits all at once.
December 30, 2025 at 1:21 PM
After is when everything you postponed comes due.
The feelings, the fatigue, the weight you couldn’t afford to feel yet.
No wonder it hits all at once.
The feelings, the fatigue, the weight you couldn’t afford to feel yet.
No wonder it hits all at once.
Survival doesn’t always come with fireworks.
It usually just comes with another morning.
So if all you see is more road, pace yourself by the breath, not the calendar.
It usually just comes with another morning.
So if all you see is more road, pace yourself by the breath, not the calendar.
December 29, 2025 at 2:05 PM
Survival doesn’t always come with fireworks.
It usually just comes with another morning.
So if all you see is more road, pace yourself by the breath, not the calendar.
It usually just comes with another morning.
So if all you see is more road, pace yourself by the breath, not the calendar.
There’s a difference between choosing strength and being cornered into it.
Sure from the outside, those two things look identical.
That time in the fire, the moments that built that resilience…we’d give them back in a heartbeat if it meant never needing to survive them at all.
Sure from the outside, those two things look identical.
That time in the fire, the moments that built that resilience…we’d give them back in a heartbeat if it meant never needing to survive them at all.
December 15, 2025 at 4:42 PM
There’s a difference between choosing strength and being cornered into it.
Sure from the outside, those two things look identical.
That time in the fire, the moments that built that resilience…we’d give them back in a heartbeat if it meant never needing to survive them at all.
Sure from the outside, those two things look identical.
That time in the fire, the moments that built that resilience…we’d give them back in a heartbeat if it meant never needing to survive them at all.
The calculus behind a simple greeting gets complicated fast.
Truth, tolerance, honesty, dissociation, personal bandwidth…all bottlenecking at once.
So I default to the lowest-friction answer: “Oh… you know…”
Truth, tolerance, honesty, dissociation, personal bandwidth…all bottlenecking at once.
So I default to the lowest-friction answer: “Oh… you know…”
December 11, 2025 at 12:35 PM
The calculus behind a simple greeting gets complicated fast.
Truth, tolerance, honesty, dissociation, personal bandwidth…all bottlenecking at once.
So I default to the lowest-friction answer: “Oh… you know…”
Truth, tolerance, honesty, dissociation, personal bandwidth…all bottlenecking at once.
So I default to the lowest-friction answer: “Oh… you know…”
Most of the work never makes it to the surface.
People see quiet; they don’t see the cost of keeping the noise inside from breaking through.
If anything, the stillness is the part that takes the most out of me.
People see quiet; they don’t see the cost of keeping the noise inside from breaking through.
If anything, the stillness is the part that takes the most out of me.
December 10, 2025 at 1:52 PM
Most of the work never makes it to the surface.
People see quiet; they don’t see the cost of keeping the noise inside from breaking through.
If anything, the stillness is the part that takes the most out of me.
People see quiet; they don’t see the cost of keeping the noise inside from breaking through.
If anything, the stillness is the part that takes the most out of me.
Depression turns breathing into effort and effort into explanation.
And trying to justify the heaviness becomes its own kind of heaviness.
There’s a loneliness in carrying something real that looks invisible from the outside.
And trying to justify the heaviness becomes its own kind of heaviness.
There’s a loneliness in carrying something real that looks invisible from the outside.
December 9, 2025 at 1:48 PM
Depression turns breathing into effort and effort into explanation.
And trying to justify the heaviness becomes its own kind of heaviness.
There’s a loneliness in carrying something real that looks invisible from the outside.
And trying to justify the heaviness becomes its own kind of heaviness.
There’s a loneliness in carrying something real that looks invisible from the outside.
The mind only spirals this hard when something matters.
We forget that sensitivity isn’t a flaw: it’s evidence of connection.
Feeling deeply just means you’re still in the world, not numb to it.
We forget that sensitivity isn’t a flaw: it’s evidence of connection.
Feeling deeply just means you’re still in the world, not numb to it.
December 8, 2025 at 1:25 PM
The mind only spirals this hard when something matters.
We forget that sensitivity isn’t a flaw: it’s evidence of connection.
Feeling deeply just means you’re still in the world, not numb to it.
We forget that sensitivity isn’t a flaw: it’s evidence of connection.
Feeling deeply just means you’re still in the world, not numb to it.
There’s a quiet mourning in realizing how much of your doubt was inherited.
Turns out not every “I can’t” belongs to me.
Turns out not every “I can’t” belongs to me.
December 3, 2025 at 1:37 PM
There’s a quiet mourning in realizing how much of your doubt was inherited.
Turns out not every “I can’t” belongs to me.
Turns out not every “I can’t” belongs to me.
The mind is great at convincing you you’re the exception to the rule.
That everyone else belongs and somehow you slipped through the cracks.
It’s sad how believable a lie becomes when you’ve heard it all your life.
That everyone else belongs and somehow you slipped through the cracks.
It’s sad how believable a lie becomes when you’ve heard it all your life.
December 2, 2025 at 1:22 PM
The mind is great at convincing you you’re the exception to the rule.
That everyone else belongs and somehow you slipped through the cracks.
It’s sad how believable a lie becomes when you’ve heard it all your life.
That everyone else belongs and somehow you slipped through the cracks.
It’s sad how believable a lie becomes when you’ve heard it all your life.
There’s a point where fading out stops feeling dramatic and just feels normal.
And once it becomes normal, it’s hard to see how much of you has gone missing.
I’m finally recognizing the difference between being quiet and being gone.
And once it becomes normal, it’s hard to see how much of you has gone missing.
I’m finally recognizing the difference between being quiet and being gone.
December 1, 2025 at 3:16 PM
There’s a point where fading out stops feeling dramatic and just feels normal.
And once it becomes normal, it’s hard to see how much of you has gone missing.
I’m finally recognizing the difference between being quiet and being gone.
And once it becomes normal, it’s hard to see how much of you has gone missing.
I’m finally recognizing the difference between being quiet and being gone.
The painful thing about receiving kindness is how unfamiliar it still feels.
That moment of hesitation wasn’t doubt in them; it was me trying to unlearn the doubt in myself.
That moment of hesitation wasn’t doubt in them; it was me trying to unlearn the doubt in myself.
November 25, 2025 at 1:53 PM
The painful thing about receiving kindness is how unfamiliar it still feels.
That moment of hesitation wasn’t doubt in them; it was me trying to unlearn the doubt in myself.
That moment of hesitation wasn’t doubt in them; it was me trying to unlearn the doubt in myself.
Blame taught me how to disappear, but it never taught me how to come back.
Now I’m relearning myself in small, clumsy ways.
And every time I don’t apologize for breathing, I reclaim a little more of who I was supposed to be.
Now I’m relearning myself in small, clumsy ways.
And every time I don’t apologize for breathing, I reclaim a little more of who I was supposed to be.
November 24, 2025 at 2:34 PM
Blame taught me how to disappear, but it never taught me how to come back.
Now I’m relearning myself in small, clumsy ways.
And every time I don’t apologize for breathing, I reclaim a little more of who I was supposed to be.
Now I’m relearning myself in small, clumsy ways.
And every time I don’t apologize for breathing, I reclaim a little more of who I was supposed to be.
It’s strange how “doing everything right” still doesn’t guarantee you get to feel human that day.
The world loves checklists…but some days the emptiness just shows up anyway.
The world loves checklists…but some days the emptiness just shows up anyway.
November 21, 2025 at 1:14 PM
It’s strange how “doing everything right” still doesn’t guarantee you get to feel human that day.
The world loves checklists…but some days the emptiness just shows up anyway.
The world loves checklists…but some days the emptiness just shows up anyway.