Abusive Streak?
Interesting choice of words.
I feel we may have just slipped into confirmation bias territory.

It's one of my favorite songs, I was listening to it, and shared it with you, and now you've somehow just about told me enough to know that I'm not comfortable forcing you to know me.

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I'm not short on creativity, either.
I've just never formed a set of financial pillars that were legal before.
I am short on Reason...
And I Flip out a lot, sometimes.
I'm sorry, My Love, I'm a big ol' asshole.

So where should I send these damn Flowers?
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I'm building an account so I can supplement my own surgeries, I need at least 2, I can't chew or swallow very well and I'm losing weight.
I'm in a weird maze I've never had to deal with before.
I can afford to pay for the removal of my tooth, but I'm in deep shit with the rest.

I'm walking away now...
I really do enjoy knowing you.

What I got is someone who can't see past their own history well enough to notice that others have had different sets of obstacles than they did.
Or maybe I spent too much time with people who had different challenges in life, and I just know a thing or 2 about being set up for failure by a lie.

I don't think you know enough about what I do to say that, and that is exactly the shit I'm talking about.
I'm making the money to pay for it with ZERO assistance from ANYBODY ELSE.
You're being unfair and cruel.

Yup, and at this very moment, I'm literally building up 2 debit cards with money that I'm pulling out of thin air so I can try to go to the dentist.
It's working, actually, my next deposit looks to be $100.
Even though I can't bear to walk out that door, I'm still doing something about the problem.

I always find it strange how, a person can go through hell in their own life, and then judge someone else because they're not succeeding in their own hellish redemption.
Like I'm not allowed to have a problem that they didn't.
Like I should be able to make good because they did.
Apples and Oranges.

Pleading?
Nah, just trying to be heard from afar.
And failing.

Nevermind.

I've already lost my Medical and Dental Insurance...
Over Stock and a bitcoin investment of $2... Total...
Because I can't figure out how to prove I own it, or the amount I own.
And they won't give me a Social Worker to walk me through it.

And I found THAT out standing IN the Dentist's Office.

Lemme tell you what happens when I say no...

No medical insurance.
No dental insurance.
No disability supplement.
No food.
No home.
No CHANCE!

All because I'm a fish.

It's even worse when I consider that I WAS a monkey, once.

The tree was a lot easier to climb, in the beginning.
Harder as I go.

It's hard to do any of this with all this noise in my head...
I really am trying, and I'm so exhausted with people just thinking that it's cuz I'm not trying hard enough, that I'm in this position.
And I AM very sensitive about it.

I'm a fish, being asked to climb a tree and perform Shakespeare...

I think I've pulled myself up pretty far, and I did it all in stocking feet.
I used to live under bridges, in tree houses and abandoned cars...
Even woke up covered in snow, once, and I thought I had died.

If you take a Talley, My Love, you'd find that I'm accomplishing WAY more than expected.

Yeah, I HAVE managed to accomplish quite a bit for someone in my shoes, no pun intended, but that doesn't mean I'm being lazy now.

I'm literally half the man I used to be, and I'm getting smaller by the day.
I'm fading away from the world you live in...
I'm will not apologise for falling apart.