I'm thankful for her husband. They are so good to her. I know they are going through so much right now. They've been together since we were 21. We are both 41 now. My bestie and I are literally a month apart. She's so young. And she's so good. And I just hate everything about this. 7/7

What are we supposed to do? How am I supposed to feel? I'm angry and I'm upset. We always thought we'd grow old together. See some of the world together. She knows me like no one else. She loves me like no one else. How am I supposed to feel. 6/7

I had already prepared myself for even worse news but that doesn't mean you still aren't shocked and upset. It's essentially everywhere. Her spine. Mass.that was in her pelvic and lungs are larger. There is one at her thyroid causing a rightward deviation in her trachea. 5/7

But on my birthday last month they admitted her and did a brain scan. Where they found lesions on her brain. One that was bleeding and one that was blocking the drainage ventricle. Scary scary things. Doctors have wanted to do a spinal mri and that happened this week. 4/7