💕 @alenajoy.bsky.social Love you B

Went to see the cherry blossoms with @alenajoy.bsky.social 🌸💕✨

Had such wonderful time with my bestie @alenajoy.bsky.social this last weekend 💕💖 We were the cutest kitties 🐾✨

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Yeah I like actually need to sit down, collect my thoughts, sit with them, and reflect. 🤪 Less avoiding my own feelings. 🙄More listening. 😔 I feel so out of touch with myself. 😵‍💫😪🤧

I actually do need to buy a diary lmao

I spent my 20s worrying so heavily over his comforts that I never practiced honoring my needs. Prioritizing my needs is still extremely challenging and feels wildly foreign. Me? First? Nu-uh. Bro I'm finally learning what I actually want and need, but it's haaaaard to put myself first. Icky. Ew. Ugh

I gotta give my ex props for initially taking our break up so well. Maybe that was largely shock and disbelief, but it was infinitely less dreadful than I imagined it might be. Initially it was so clean and easy. The terror that kept me there, had it's claws so deep in me, and for what?🤦‍♀️

Dude i was wicked numb leading up to ending my 9 year relationship. I felt diddly. I think I had cried to myself so much in the time prior, that when the end was truly nigh, I was all dried up about it. Over it. Sick of it. Excited. Terrified, still, to finally cut ties. But just no tears.

Last year I truly manic pixie dream girl'd too close to the sun. I did myself so dirty by getting infatuated with someone, when I *knew* I needed singleness more than anything. I needed to just be me. But oh Lord, I became somebody else's everything.

It quickly crushed me. ☺️🤪❤️‍🩹✨️

January 2024 - No more selfies. Tumblr boy begins to consume my time. I'm giving it freely, though it begins to cost greatly. Sigh. Now we just admire some final Binky and Walters as this transition wraps up my month. I'm moved back home with the 'rents. That's a big transition itself. 🧚-🙍‍♂️,+👨, +🏡👱‍♀️👴🧏‍♂️

January 2024 ~ Single. Manic and in love with everyone, feeling momentarily FREE. Single for the first time since I was 18. The world was my oyster and I felt indestructible, underestimating my delicacy.

January 2024 continued ~ I was swiftly preparing to move out of my ex's place while he was out of town. Ye old rug pull. It felt cruel but like a kindness too. A necessity. He didn't know it was happening. I was largely numb. The cats made me cry but little else.

I was aching to be loved and excited to be free. I was so foolish. Here's me ending one bad thing and starting another. Bro I was lowkey delusional. I haven't shared most of these selfies, and I want to reflect on each month this year. Been the most insane year of my life, undoubtedly most chaotic~'

January 2024 I ended a 9 year relationship and landed myself into a new one with my 2012 tumblr crush. Lessons? Don't stay with someone that long if you know you aren't happy, and do not date your 2012 tumblr crush. Oooof. The epitome of manic pixie dream girl, I was.. being whack. Whaaack.

Howdy yalll. Firstly, I'm gonna photo dump here and reflect on the insane year I had. Selfies imminent! 🤪😤🤙✨️