But saying im not confident enough in dating when i’ve been nothing but that with him, taking risks, being straight forward, while he is not willing to give anyone a chance to date them because theyre not 100% a match on paper is kind of ridiculous. It hides a fear of choosing wrong

I keep thinking about this and some things he said felt more like projection and assumption than anything else. And i guess he is very inexperienced with gay men, never had a gay friend even, and never having dated so it kinda makes sense that he thinks like

Time to dyi

I mean i guess at least he called for almost 2 hours to talk about everything but it’s clear he is being immature about his expectations for what a relationship is. He told me he took notes on things i said to reflect on that. I dont know what i can expect now. I do wish he would change his mind

I just feel so depleted. We matched so well physically and it felt so right. This fucking sucks. And its obvious he will come to regret having thrown away something so great and compatible. Lots of gay men arent as emotionally intelligent/mature and wanting the same things he does (marriagemonogamy)

It seems he is not giving people (me) or dating a real chance, since he is looking for someone who 100% matches all his criteria. We only have one sort of incompatibility and he is judging it based on one instance where i was very unusually off balance for reasons.

The funny thing is i actually know no russian

I dont think i ever mentioned being born in russia to you aha. Thanks handsome

We follow you for her anyway

Woof🥵

Lol i do, so i must be cursed? All i ever get is being dismissed and guys being condescending or pushy🤷‍♂️

Funnily i dont even get any sexual thoughts. It’s more like maybe he’s bicurious or dl lmaoo. Like no way a straight man is nicer than any gay men i ever met

And similarly i feel less guarded with a non threatening straight man. They dont tend to cross my boundaries and be pushy, they just enjoy the connection for what it is

Seems like that’s what’s working best for me. Unfortunately i keep connecting well with super straight men lately aha. They’re somehow more emotionally open than any gay men i ever met, which i’m finding surprising but makes it hard not to imagine scenarios when they act ‘so gay’

It’s so much better to meet people irl organically. Them being gay and single is rare though lol

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