Spiritually : I feel stronger emotions, so much I have more emotional burnouts than before. Truth be told in such an antipathic world I count it as a big win.

My libido is back, I can even handle my gock, seeing it as an oversized clit. The absence of cum smell helps, my boost in self esteem too.

So, physically : my skin never have been so soft and smooth, I love it, I really really love it 💜💜💜

Body hair is easier and easier to shave while head hair is stronger and darker, I'm more brunette than ever before and lovin' it 💜

My gock is not getting black spots and cum is odourless, no pain.

It's quite interesting that the same people who have peoven me I deserve self love are also proving me I'm not becoming narcissistic... Choose your friends wisely, they're out there 💜

Attaining self love feels weird for me : dismorphia and narcissistic people broke me at birth and my whole life for so long I lived in the constant fear self love would bring me to become a narcissist myself... Truth be told it does not. I'm just FINALLY getting comfy 💜

More on that : no sexual thoughts involved on my side (definitely on my side only) and my genitalia were not involved, the involvement of genitalia did definitely break what was happening. I don't know but it was something I never experienced before... Kind of a physical feeling of safety... 🤔

Today I gained strength in many senses : hearing, smell, taste, touch... I don't know where it comes from, I don't know why, half my theories are borderline science-fiction and nothing much was moving before that so yeah, I'm lost right now between being sure and having been proven wrong. 🫶

My left arm is changing, a few weeks after the right one. I don't know if it's because of my sudden ambidexterity, my transition, everything me going on (I think it's all linked)

The nervous pain is intense, from shoulder to finger, but becoming more potent and more me makes it all awesome 😃💜

My home is empathy, easy one for me 💜 let's say it's in all those acts, movements, tones and such between the people I love and myself 💜

You've always been you and I, I. I recommend realising you didn't change with a new sticker in your medical records ;)

But I see myself somewhere on the autistic + ADHD spectrum, not having two neurodivergencies and way less more than one personality 💜

Life got better with mood stabilisers tho 💜

I stopped because they take it as a lack of self confidence 😡

And then one day people finally listen to you and what was spite becomes the soil of a beautiful new world 💜 keep on existing, you're winning 💜

It can be hard, but I advice the reader to be part of the good in this world 💜 healing the world heals yourself if you're kindhearted 💜