Alta
@altamillia.bsky.social
Painfully Blind. I watch 1 anime a year, beat 3 games a year, and enjoy writing books if motivation allows for it. He/him.
No idea what’s changed, I doubt the therapy worked this fast, but I can touch the top of my hands for the first time in 25 years without eliciting a severe physical and mental flight response. So that’s rad.
February 5, 2026 at 11:39 AM
No idea what’s changed, I doubt the therapy worked this fast, but I can touch the top of my hands for the first time in 25 years without eliciting a severe physical and mental flight response. So that’s rad.
Failed my eye exam, no one could have seen this coming. Least of all me.
January 29, 2026 at 10:33 PM
Failed my eye exam, no one could have seen this coming. Least of all me.
Media thread because I was so good at it the first two times.
January 28, 2026 at 2:43 AM
Media thread because I was so good at it the first two times.
“Have you completed an eye exam in the last 12 months?” No, Canadian National Institute for the Blind, I am blind. Not hard of seeing from old age, who throws away $150 just for someone to tell you “nah you’re still screwed.”
January 25, 2026 at 12:57 AM
“Have you completed an eye exam in the last 12 months?” No, Canadian National Institute for the Blind, I am blind. Not hard of seeing from old age, who throws away $150 just for someone to tell you “nah you’re still screwed.”
Been cursing my apartment complex for months because they couldn’t be bothered to replace the lights outside, making my night walks slightly inconvenient. They finally replaced them with what can only be described as supernovas, localized entirely in my apartment parking lot, shining in my window.
January 18, 2026 at 10:29 AM
Been cursing my apartment complex for months because they couldn’t be bothered to replace the lights outside, making my night walks slightly inconvenient. They finally replaced them with what can only be described as supernovas, localized entirely in my apartment parking lot, shining in my window.
Therapy’s going well but a strange realization I’ve had because of it is how important carpeted floor is to my sense of home. Hell, one of the worst parts of my life in 2023 was made 10x easier because the place I stayed at for those first six months had a carpeted lower floor, where I made my room.
January 13, 2026 at 11:33 AM
Therapy’s going well but a strange realization I’ve had because of it is how important carpeted floor is to my sense of home. Hell, one of the worst parts of my life in 2023 was made 10x easier because the place I stayed at for those first six months had a carpeted lower floor, where I made my room.
My life ends two months from now. Not really, but my October appointment I had to reschedule is now set for March 6th. Sure would be cool if I had reliable people around me to actually get therapy done before then and make it less awful. But at least the real surgery will be sometime later.
January 9, 2026 at 1:02 AM
My life ends two months from now. Not really, but my October appointment I had to reschedule is now set for March 6th. Sure would be cool if I had reliable people around me to actually get therapy done before then and make it less awful. But at least the real surgery will be sometime later.
I often make the mistake (deliberate choice driven by my lack of motivation) of not setting time aside to write after doing so for a month or two. So I set a goal to do 1k every day for the whole year. I’ll give myself a break the day of and after surgery, depending how messed up I am.
January 8, 2026 at 9:05 PM
I often make the mistake (deliberate choice driven by my lack of motivation) of not setting time aside to write after doing so for a month or two. So I set a goal to do 1k every day for the whole year. I’ll give myself a break the day of and after surgery, depending how messed up I am.
Love waking up to the US performing a hostile takeover of a foreign country, as someone living in a place they’ve repeatedly referred to as already theirs.
January 3, 2026 at 9:31 PM
Love waking up to the US performing a hostile takeover of a foreign country, as someone living in a place they’ve repeatedly referred to as already theirs.
Happy new year. I’m sure it’ll be overall fine, especially later on, but it is difficult to look forward to the year knowing I’ll spend two and a half months minimum going through and recovering from surgery/procedures. Regardless, the outcome will make my life 100x better. So, best year so far.
January 1, 2026 at 8:34 AM
Happy new year. I’m sure it’ll be overall fine, especially later on, but it is difficult to look forward to the year knowing I’ll spend two and a half months minimum going through and recovering from surgery/procedures. Regardless, the outcome will make my life 100x better. So, best year so far.
Game awards were rad and Divinity is back baby. But also amid the bloodbath of awards discourse, the E33 war, and everything in between, no one has brought up the true crime of the show. Why did we let it slide that Battlefield won best audio, who did that?
December 14, 2025 at 12:05 AM
Game awards were rad and Divinity is back baby. But also amid the bloodbath of awards discourse, the E33 war, and everything in between, no one has brought up the true crime of the show. Why did we let it slide that Battlefield won best audio, who did that?
Fire alarm has been beeping once every ten seconds for sox hours since 7am and I’m about to start a fire just to spite it. Bastard fire dept woke me up early a few weeks ago and didn’t even change the battery. And I’m too blind to see what I’m doing to remove it. This is a hell like no other.
December 10, 2025 at 7:51 PM
Fire alarm has been beeping once every ten seconds for sox hours since 7am and I’m about to start a fire just to spite it. Bastard fire dept woke me up early a few weeks ago and didn’t even change the battery. And I’m too blind to see what I’m doing to remove it. This is a hell like no other.
Learned that arachnophobia modes do not work on me very well. Satisfactory replaces spider-like creatures with .png’s of cat faces but I know what they’re hiding. I know their secrets. And it still creeps me out. Better than just seeing spiders swarming me, but still.
December 5, 2025 at 9:40 AM
Learned that arachnophobia modes do not work on me very well. Satisfactory replaces spider-like creatures with .png’s of cat faces but I know what they’re hiding. I know their secrets. And it still creeps me out. Better than just seeing spiders swarming me, but still.
Turns out I don’t need a test for the former, as I have been absorbed into the world of Satisfactory. I will reach peak efficiency, eventually.
I can’t say I’ve ever been tested for either but I promise you, YouTube, you’re asking the wrong guy.
December 5, 2025 at 12:32 AM
Turns out I don’t need a test for the former, as I have been absorbed into the world of Satisfactory. I will reach peak efficiency, eventually.
Therapist asked me yesterday what I excelled at and, if it wasn’t open already, I fear my silence would have shattered the window in that office. Listen we’re here for anxiety and fear not confidence and self-image.
November 22, 2025 at 7:31 PM
Therapist asked me yesterday what I excelled at and, if it wasn’t open already, I fear my silence would have shattered the window in that office. Listen we’re here for anxiety and fear not confidence and self-image.
First session went well. Talked about all the usual stuff I assume happens in therapy; family history, medical history, known traumas, goals, everything in between. Another set for two weeks from now.
November 22, 2025 at 12:57 AM
First session went well. Talked about all the usual stuff I assume happens in therapy; family history, medical history, known traumas, goals, everything in between. Another set for two weeks from now.
The gender neutral urge to find a cheap place to live, pack two bags, and move several hours away to get a fresh start without notifying anyone.
November 21, 2025 at 8:39 AM
The gender neutral urge to find a cheap place to live, pack two bags, and move several hours away to get a fresh start without notifying anyone.
Consultation went well so now I can actually use this.
November 11, 2025 at 2:09 AM
Consultation went well so now I can actually use this.
Of course it’s the addition of vampires making me want to play another not-civilization style game.
November 7, 2025 at 8:53 PM
Of course it’s the addition of vampires making me want to play another not-civilization style game.
I can’t say I’ve ever been tested for either but I promise you, YouTube, you’re asking the wrong guy.
November 6, 2025 at 5:31 AM
I can’t say I’ve ever been tested for either but I promise you, YouTube, you’re asking the wrong guy.
Back in the writing mines, the boring one with all the study of scenes, structure, and various analyses. And also the boring book mines, I cannot wait to be done with my current read. Probably tomorrow or the next day. Then I throw a dart at one of four series’.
November 4, 2025 at 12:50 AM
Back in the writing mines, the boring one with all the study of scenes, structure, and various analyses. And also the boring book mines, I cannot wait to be done with my current read. Probably tomorrow or the next day. Then I throw a dart at one of four series’.
About to call the vet on my sister’s behalf and cover the cost if it turns out I’m just paranoid. Pretty sure the little guy has had a fever all day and potentially a UTI or something similar. How she doesn’t see the obvious changes in her cat, I don’t know. Been stressing me out immensely for days.
October 16, 2025 at 2:44 AM
About to call the vet on my sister’s behalf and cover the cost if it turns out I’m just paranoid. Pretty sure the little guy has had a fever all day and potentially a UTI or something similar. How she doesn’t see the obvious changes in her cat, I don’t know. Been stressing me out immensely for days.
Sometimes I wonder if my sister deliberately convinces herself her cat isn’t in pain or has health problems because she’s too broke to afford vet bills (and should therefore never have gotten the cat). The thing causes me more stress than her, one of two reasons I do not want a pet.
October 14, 2025 at 10:53 PM
Sometimes I wonder if my sister deliberately convinces herself her cat isn’t in pain or has health problems because she’s too broke to afford vet bills (and should therefore never have gotten the cat). The thing causes me more stress than her, one of two reasons I do not want a pet.
Pretty sure the cat dislikes fish flavoured foods. Which is annoying, considering the stranglehold Big Tuna has on the cat food industry.
October 2, 2025 at 8:50 PM
Pretty sure the cat dislikes fish flavoured foods. Which is annoying, considering the stranglehold Big Tuna has on the cat food industry.