I keep alternating between finally feeling okay again and wanting to drive off a bridge
December 30, 2025 at 3:04 AM
I keep alternating between finally feeling okay again and wanting to drive off a bridge
not that I'm ever going to do anything but I just cannot shake the feeling of just Not Wanting To Live and I feel like I'm just a constant strain on those around me
December 22, 2025 at 4:06 AM
not that I'm ever going to do anything but I just cannot shake the feeling of just Not Wanting To Live and I feel like I'm just a constant strain on those around me
I genuinely don't know how I'm supposed to handle what happened and still act like everything is normal
December 18, 2025 at 3:05 AM
I genuinely don't know how I'm supposed to handle what happened and still act like everything is normal
Okay so:
• My mother explicitly said she "does not approve" of my "decisions"
• I am no longer in the will
• My sister knows, my cousin outed me to her
• Mom has cried every day since o came out to her
• All conversation about my transition has been about how it impacts others
sick.
• My mother explicitly said she "does not approve" of my "decisions"
• I am no longer in the will
• My sister knows, my cousin outed me to her
• Mom has cried every day since o came out to her
• All conversation about my transition has been about how it impacts others
sick.
December 13, 2025 at 9:42 PM
Okay so:
• My mother explicitly said she "does not approve" of my "decisions"
• I am no longer in the will
• My sister knows, my cousin outed me to her
• Mom has cried every day since o came out to her
• All conversation about my transition has been about how it impacts others
sick.
• My mother explicitly said she "does not approve" of my "decisions"
• I am no longer in the will
• My sister knows, my cousin outed me to her
• Mom has cried every day since o came out to her
• All conversation about my transition has been about how it impacts others
sick.
istg the worst part of getting sick is that the house goes to complete shit and I'm too weak to keep up with the mess
December 2, 2025 at 4:44 PM
istg the worst part of getting sick is that the house goes to complete shit and I'm too weak to keep up with the mess
I worked on this.... for two months... to get instantly slapped by the a automoderator
November 15, 2025 at 2:33 PM
I worked on this.... for two months... to get instantly slapped by the a automoderator
cracked shower pan causing water to leak behind the wall and onto our patio 🥴
October 20, 2025 at 3:35 PM
cracked shower pan causing water to leak behind the wall and onto our patio 🥴
I sincerely wish I could just stop hating myself as much as I do and enjoy doing *something* for the sake of doing it. I feel like I'm constantly on the verge of falling apart and I don't know that to do anymore. Everything hurts all the time.
October 19, 2025 at 6:43 AM
I sincerely wish I could just stop hating myself as much as I do and enjoy doing *something* for the sake of doing it. I feel like I'm constantly on the verge of falling apart and I don't know that to do anymore. Everything hurts all the time.
complete and total meltdown triggered by the fact that I'm turning 35 and am so utterly dissatisfied with the state of my life and my future
August 25, 2025 at 7:45 PM
complete and total meltdown triggered by the fact that I'm turning 35 and am so utterly dissatisfied with the state of my life and my future
kind of a huge bummer that the wip of a piece i spent like two weeks working on got more attention than the finished product 😮💨
August 18, 2025 at 9:53 PM
kind of a huge bummer that the wip of a piece i spent like two weeks working on got more attention than the finished product 😮💨
the reality of slowly losing your ability to picture things in your head clearly is terrifying and devastating
August 11, 2025 at 2:36 AM
the reality of slowly losing your ability to picture things in your head clearly is terrifying and devastating
on the bright side statistically ill die young and get taken down by a heart attack or stroke
August 7, 2025 at 12:53 AM
on the bright side statistically ill die young and get taken down by a heart attack or stroke
i feel like I'm being pulled in too many directions and my best just isn't enough to keep up
July 16, 2025 at 5:07 AM
i feel like I'm being pulled in too many directions and my best just isn't enough to keep up
We had a very, very long conversation on Saturday night. He doesn't judge, he's just terrified and wants to protect me. Trip ended on a high note.
dad is really quiet and distant today.
"he's just having a really hard time with it."
"I'm sorry. I really just hope I'm not an embarrassment to him."
"... he's... just having a really hard time."
"he's just having a really hard time with it."
"I'm sorry. I really just hope I'm not an embarrassment to him."
"... he's... just having a really hard time."
July 7, 2025 at 4:46 PM
We had a very, very long conversation on Saturday night. He doesn't judge, he's just terrified and wants to protect me. Trip ended on a high note.
dad is really quiet and distant today.
"he's just having a really hard time with it."
"I'm sorry. I really just hope I'm not an embarrassment to him."
"... he's... just having a really hard time."
"he's just having a really hard time with it."
"I'm sorry. I really just hope I'm not an embarrassment to him."
"... he's... just having a really hard time."
July 5, 2025 at 7:41 PM
dad is really quiet and distant today.
"he's just having a really hard time with it."
"I'm sorry. I really just hope I'm not an embarrassment to him."
"... he's... just having a really hard time."
"he's just having a really hard time with it."
"I'm sorry. I really just hope I'm not an embarrassment to him."
"... he's... just having a really hard time."
mom and dad are still processing my coming out to them. dad is apparently having a hard time with it. they're accepting, love me, and not ashamed, but. still having trouble working through the emotions
July 4, 2025 at 8:15 PM
mom and dad are still processing my coming out to them. dad is apparently having a hard time with it. they're accepting, love me, and not ashamed, but. still having trouble working through the emotions
lowkey trying to avoid a full-on panic attack at the idea of seeing my folks this weekend for the first time since coming out
July 3, 2025 at 4:40 AM
lowkey trying to avoid a full-on panic attack at the idea of seeing my folks this weekend for the first time since coming out
Getting (lightly) lectured by one of my bosses for the team not meeting the close deadline is actual torture for me, a notorious people pleaser
June 13, 2025 at 2:50 PM
Getting (lightly) lectured by one of my bosses for the team not meeting the close deadline is actual torture for me, a notorious people pleaser
there is a broken part of my brain that genuinely believes that I am only worthy of love or appreciation if I work hard enough to earn it
it isn't true, but I have no idea how to turn it off
it isn't true, but I have no idea how to turn it off
March 31, 2025 at 4:10 AM
there is a broken part of my brain that genuinely believes that I am only worthy of love or appreciation if I work hard enough to earn it
it isn't true, but I have no idea how to turn it off
it isn't true, but I have no idea how to turn it off