Maya
@ammayamaginary.bsky.social
I have ungrounded and highly emotional fears that feel very legitimate. I have positive experiences with people who I feel would lynch me if they knew I was trans. I have trouble reconciling with these things and struggle to articulate the duality of the world I live in.
January 20, 2026 at 4:54 AM
I have ungrounded and highly emotional fears that feel very legitimate. I have positive experiences with people who I feel would lynch me if they knew I was trans. I have trouble reconciling with these things and struggle to articulate the duality of the world I live in.
Either love can exist without acceptance or I'm being fucking lied to. Merry Christmas everyone, it's good to be home I guess.
December 25, 2024 at 2:20 AM
Either love can exist without acceptance or I'm being fucking lied to. Merry Christmas everyone, it's good to be home I guess.
I've come to the realization I fear romance and intimacy bc I don't want anyone experiencing my body. It's a thought that horrifies me, but also deeply saddens me bc I value that intimacy so highly, I just didn't trust anyone enough fast enough to make that relationship work. 1/
December 12, 2024 at 7:12 AM
I've come to the realization I fear romance and intimacy bc I don't want anyone experiencing my body. It's a thought that horrifies me, but also deeply saddens me bc I value that intimacy so highly, I just didn't trust anyone enough fast enough to make that relationship work. 1/
Every day I wake up and feel the weight of an entire system I don't want to participate in but am forced to unless I want to die in the street unceremoniously and that really takes a toll on you in a way nothing else really can
September 21, 2024 at 5:26 AM
Every day I wake up and feel the weight of an entire system I don't want to participate in but am forced to unless I want to die in the street unceremoniously and that really takes a toll on you in a way nothing else really can
Being alive becomes a more arduous proposition with each wasted day
August 10, 2024 at 5:21 AM
Being alive becomes a more arduous proposition with each wasted day
I hate everything I used to love
July 6, 2024 at 9:04 AM
I hate everything I used to love
The romanticization of suicide, depression, and self harm in a lot of my comfort nostalgia aesthetics and genres is a real danger to my physical and mental health but I can't escape it. Any advice?
July 5, 2024 at 6:54 AM
The romanticization of suicide, depression, and self harm in a lot of my comfort nostalgia aesthetics and genres is a real danger to my physical and mental health but I can't escape it. Any advice?
I can't wait to get my facial hair permanently removed
May 24, 2024 at 11:45 PM
I can't wait to get my facial hair permanently removed
My dysphoria is getting worse. Like it might honestly kill me any day now if I don't find a way to manage it. I'm living in someone else's body. That or they're living in mine. Either way somebody's leaving soon.
May 2, 2024 at 4:21 AM
My dysphoria is getting worse. Like it might honestly kill me any day now if I don't find a way to manage it. I'm living in someone else's body. That or they're living in mine. Either way somebody's leaving soon.
I wish I'd never lived past the age where I realized the horrors and evils of this world.
May 2, 2024 at 4:19 AM
I wish I'd never lived past the age where I realized the horrors and evils of this world.
I know no one uses this anymore but if any moots see this I'm not okay rn
March 25, 2024 at 5:24 AM
I know no one uses this anymore but if any moots see this I'm not okay rn
I'm leaving this place very soon. It's taken me years, but I'm finally escaping. All the planning, all the months of mental anguish, the despairing thoughts that this would never come to pass, that I would die here, all of it culminates in this. It's mundane. It's unceremonious. It's perfect.
February 21, 2024 at 6:58 AM
I'm leaving this place very soon. It's taken me years, but I'm finally escaping. All the planning, all the months of mental anguish, the despairing thoughts that this would never come to pass, that I would die here, all of it culminates in this. It's mundane. It's unceremonious. It's perfect.
Nobody loves you, do they?
February 9, 2024 at 7:35 AM
Nobody loves you, do they?
Sometimes I wonder if I'd just be prettier as a girl
January 25, 2024 at 7:26 AM
Sometimes I wonder if I'd just be prettier as a girl
If I have to keep pretending to be a boy I'll be dead before I turn 30. Idk if I'm a woman but I'm def not just a guy, this doesn't feel right
January 18, 2024 at 6:00 AM
If I have to keep pretending to be a boy I'll be dead before I turn 30. Idk if I'm a woman but I'm def not just a guy, this doesn't feel right
Idk what it is about thigh highs but they bring me unimaginable joy when I wear them
January 2, 2024 at 2:04 AM
Idk what it is about thigh highs but they bring me unimaginable joy when I wear them
In a few days I'll be heading home, it feels surreal after spending so much time in Europe
December 30, 2023 at 8:21 AM
In a few days I'll be heading home, it feels surreal after spending so much time in Europe
How can I stop growing facial hair?
December 24, 2023 at 1:31 AM
How can I stop growing facial hair?
I wish i looked like Mononoke
December 11, 2023 at 9:18 PM
I wish i looked like Mononoke
I love the snow so much it's hard to put into words. Makes me wanna move further north one day
November 28, 2023 at 8:23 AM
I love the snow so much it's hard to put into words. Makes me wanna move further north one day
I really enjoy being drunk, it's a really nice feeling to me
November 18, 2023 at 6:53 AM
I really enjoy being drunk, it's a really nice feeling to me
Was packing a box up at work today and a coworker came up from behind me and said "dude I thought you were a girl for a minute there and I was like who is that?" I wasn't even dressed femme, so that really made my day honestly
November 14, 2023 at 8:49 PM
Was packing a box up at work today and a coworker came up from behind me and said "dude I thought you were a girl for a minute there and I was like who is that?" I wasn't even dressed femme, so that really made my day honestly
I've started writing to do lists and calling them my "gay agendas," which may be the funniest thing I've ever done
November 9, 2023 at 8:33 AM
I've started writing to do lists and calling them my "gay agendas," which may be the funniest thing I've ever done
I've had one of the better weeks I've had this year, genuinely excited for the new year which isn't something I've felt in a very long time
November 8, 2023 at 9:05 AM
I've had one of the better weeks I've had this year, genuinely excited for the new year which isn't something I've felt in a very long time
Sometimes I see really pretty ppl when I'm out and I feel bad for looking at them but they just make me happy. Like I'll never see them again, and idk if they even know how pretty they are, but for a moment I know they're appreciated.
October 29, 2023 at 11:23 PM
Sometimes I see really pretty ppl when I'm out and I feel bad for looking at them but they just make me happy. Like I'll never see them again, and idk if they even know how pretty they are, but for a moment I know they're appreciated.