🥰 thank you!!!

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of myself for so long now, and it really does help to say it out loud and to know it's not just me. i'm so glad you're making it out of the hole; i can't wait until i can get there too ❤️‍🩹

waaa thank you so much for this kiku :') 🫂 i've taken to just kind of laughing it off when people ask if i've been making any art like haha art blocks suck right, but tonight is the first time in a while i'm letting myself really feel how upsetting it is to just not have access to this part -

clearly i at least need to see a therapist bc there is a lot i've been bottling up and avoiding this year LOL

i think my goal for 2026 needs to be to set aside money & finally address my mental health needs, get a diagnosis, etc. although there is also the caveat that in this current administration i'm fearful of even getting that diagnosis!! but idk what choice i have if i want to find some balance.

literally can't depend on myself to actually get things done on time bc my brain refuses to work properly, & i feel like such a failure!! i adore picture books with all my heart but i simply don't have the capacity to be making them right now and it sucks. 🤷

email from my agent several months ago & while i probably would've come to the conclusion that it's time for me to take a break anyway, the fact that they're now essentially dropping me for the time being bc i'm so inactive has been such a gut punch. this is what i want to be doing but i -

published work without absolutely destroying my mental & physical health just to get it done while also working full time to stay afloat. i've had to step away from agency work bc my last job ended in a week long anxiety attack & i had to back out; & i just found out i completely missed a check-in -

🥺 aw thank you reina!!! it makes me so happy to remember that people enjoy my art and that it exists out there even though i haven't been able to make anything new lately ❤️‍🩹

i've pretty much just spent this year enjoying muppet content, crocheting (i finished a granny square sweater last week!!), cleaning my apartment in between periods of being too tired to do anything, and working at my retail job that is steadily eating away at my soul

anyway i'm hoping maybe connecting more with community will help with all that.. so i will try and be more active here!! 👋