I'm so tired of this life.

I got lost and went too far south and had to pay $15 for an uber or miss my shift.
I already had to push my shift back 2 hours.

I get to work and everything is so dirty and the place reeks. None of the problems i worked on and begged management to care about and address are better at all.

I called the number to switch to the bus and the hold time was longer than it was going to take the bus to get there. I had to hang up and pay another $24 out of pocket for the bus home.
I took the max home to drop my things off before going to work.
I missed the bus to work so i tried to scooter.

The next bus wasn't for 2 hours so i had a coffee and ate. After another hour i started looking at other methods to get home.
Nothing else could make me get home in time for work so i waited awhile longer.
When the next bus was 15 minutes out, they texted everyone offering free refunds and changes.

Does she not know how AI guzzles water at an unsustainable rate?
Or does she not care?

Does she not know how AI is being weaponized by both federal and local police?
Or does she not care?

Does she not understand how AI steals content, art, ideas?
Or does she not care?

And then tonight my gf and i were looking thru onlyfans and she follows like exclusively thin people and idk man

What an icky series of events.

I just feel gross and shitty and undesirable as a person and I'm gonna journal about it but needed to scream on the internet a wee bit too.

Like dude! This was about you and everyone who treats me like you do.

I feel a lot worse now bc this implies like
They DO want an emotional connection, just not with me.