Hi, thanks. Having a VERY bad year. I've blocked BlueSky because I've found it to be problematic. Temporarily unblocked it to retrieve something and saw this, so I'm replying to say thanks. I'll dm you my email should you ever want to talk. Re-enabling the extension to block bsky now. :)

i hate me

SORRY! Deleted! I'm an idiot who just woke up full of narcissism.

SORRY. I should delete the below. But then it would fuck up context.

So context: I'm a self-centered inappropriate idiot.

The only one I remember is golden seal.

I lived in Clearwater, Florida for 2 years and the a/c in my condo couldn't handle the load.
I didn't wear a stitch of clothing inside for the entire 2 years except when I had visitors.

Some of the visitors.

thanks!

wtf did I do now? :(

I am SO FUCKING TIRED of people denigrating the eating of ass.

yeah 🥰

what you've written above, and the situation you're dealing with. You know I'm grappling with my own split and identity issues.

I don't know what to say to help, I don't have your capacity to help others. Just know that you're SO important to me, and I know to others.
💗
All my love.

Dearest Aisling... ❤️‍🔥

You know my past in more detail than anyone else on Earth.
I worry that I in a sense abused our friendship by loading my shit onto you like that. I hope that's not something you're referencing. But also, I think you may realize that I'm in a position to understand what this...

(postscript: HRT can also cause elevated levels, but mine were high before... and anyway even if its HRT, you still wanna treat it.)

But my sister is still pissed because they prescribed the minimum dose of levothyroxin without looking into my actual thyroid levels or sending me to an endocrinologist (what trans women actually get to see a real endo?...) ⏹️

Finally this month they paid attention when my sister pressed them and saw my TSH elevated (pituitary trying to signal thyroid to get in gear)... that, reading in context with the rest (estrogen 244 testosterone 11, etc) and their brains thinking "woman" finally made something click I guess.▶️

also sometimes they get skin cancer and die

still in the process of coming out as having DID.
scarier than coming out as trans.

Was my deepest darkest secret.

Well.
2nd deepest darkest.
Deepest darkest I'm not telling you. Told Aisling, barely, only one I ever told and I spent a month spiraling, still haven't recovered.