epic tapping.🤘

it’s ok.🙏 it might sound silly but I’d rather feel hurt than not. and i did get a good song out of it.☺️

and i am enjoying being tapped by it.😬

gosh. can i relate. unfortunately, the last time i put myself out there, it did not go the way i hoped. and it hurt. and I let myself feel it and slowly moved on.

but you gotta take that leap. it’s a risk, for sure, but the more you do it, the easier it might get. (or so i’m told.😬)

you win the internet today.

Ummmmm…but…ummmmm…like can you see it? i mean, now I can’t unsee it. like…wha?

all the time, girl. it’s weirdly cathartic to rage post, and then be like…wait. no. they’re all not ready for this much truth. delete.

🥺💜

i was an extremely frustrated person. prone to snap. quick to anger. and i was painfully aware of it but impotent to do anything about it.

so i thought.

all of that is gone now.

sure i’m sad because of what i lost but i’m finally at peace within my body and mind.

at night i’ll just stare in the mirror with this giddiness. like, sure it too a long time to get here, but, look! look at me! it me as a girl! like i always was!

every single adult from my childhood failed me. failed all of us. it haunts me to this day.

i left when i was 18. and mostly because i never had faith i just craved community.

but what has been the most difficult thing to come to terms with is this:

the normalization of the abuse. everyone knew. EVERYONE. and if everyone knows and no one is doing anything about it, it must be normal.

jeez. i’m angry.

it is an organization designed for exploitation. a world wide grift that has left countless children and adults traumatized, plagued with addictions and suicidal. and they don’t give a shit.

every church in the world should be set ablaze and the blackened dirt salted.

fuck the catholic church

it’s not.😬 as a middle aged recently out trans woman with no game who is still trying to figure out just who the hell i’m attracted to (everybody?), i’ve decided to cease the apps and hope to meet someone out in the wild. i’m going analog!

i’ve only started tipping my toe back into the dating world (after a looooooooooong time) but i’ve found the most traction with Taimi and Ok Cupid.💜

and i hope this isn’t too forward but what you said resonated cause i’ve been there. (and still am from time-to-time) if i can offer any support, just ask.

i wish i had a piece of wisdom to share from my decades of experience, but honestly, we are who we are; rebellious, subversive, in my case broken, renegades screaming back at a world we were thrown into without consent and caged. and from where I stand, your screams rattle the fuck outta that cage.