and then all of a sudden i started to have a panic attack on top of all this and had to gasp "please sit down"

and slowly i realized, ohhhh

the last time someone was standing above me and i was sitting with my dog barking & i couldn't breathe, i'd just been strangled and was laying in a bed.

also like that doesn't even bring in the god side of this, jesus christ...

clearly should take advantage of the bike/trolley lane parkour pillars before they're torn down by the police

— ensure when they're released that they're sent home with a few zines with the basic info on "why you shouldn't believe any bullshit the agents try to say to make you an informant or admit to something you never did" and "what to do if you are being pressured or coerced by agents" etc.

why does a whole clique of ppl act so comfortable being on side of building or past blue line? often the same people.

"abstruse" therefore describes not esoteric difficulty, intellectual complexity, or even the haughty airs of fussy mystics and astrologers. in fact, abstruse suggests a "pushing away" — a deliberate effort to not be understood, to elude easy access or common knowledge.