However, when I wake up tomorrow, everything will be back to normal. I just feel extra heartbroken tonight.It happens once in a while, so this is probably normal.

I know what I really want...but it's too late anyway.All I can do now is sit and wait for the countdown.

For other people, they would probably choose the first option. I would also choose the first option, but I think that option is too difficult for me.I tried... I tried until I ended up in a place I shouldn't be in.

It was a torment between the choice of whether I should find friends to make me feel comfortable while I was alive or the other option was to disappear from everyone's memory and disappear peacefully.

The only future I see is a six-month military draft after I graduate... after that, I don't know what will happen next.It might stop there, someday during those 6 months.

It's in preparation for something I'm not sure about...maybe it's in preparation for when I disappear, haha.

I can't even remember what website or game keys I have.

Thank you, and sorry . I do have a plan to create a reference sheet, but it might not be anytime soon.(⁠~⁠‾⁠▿⁠‾⁠)⁠~