I genuinely am trying to improve, and to at least forgive myself, but I'm scared im just being performative with all of this.

I dont where to go right now, those places to "move on", the places I can be the person others wanted me to be.

But that desire got overblown, and I ended up making having people needing to give up on me for taking their second chances and doing away with them selfishly.

I don't want to casted away again and I don't wallow away in isolation. I regret how I handled things.

Trying to be a bit more active here at the least... actually if you read this... share any ideas of art you want to see from me idk