maybe I should ban myself from social media and working on covers for a few weeks

At the same time, I'm not really sure what I could and should do about it. I both want to fix the downward spiraling metrics, and also not worry about the metrics at the same time. It's been a constant conflict in my head throughout the entire year

man idk everything's gone down the drain in 2025 in terms of my online careers

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some of y'all think too highly of me I barely know what I'm doing in life

like there are so many more things I wish I could do or be better at, specifically for vocalsynths I wish I could actually make original music or make really funky and cool tuning

like don't get me wrong I still actively make covers because I like them and want to show them to the world, but I can still be down about the dwindling performance - they're not mutually exclusive

in other news I don't know what to do about the dwindling views for the cover content it just makes me feel like I'm not doing good enough despite the positive comments

like maybe that really is the case

I need to set up a rule for myself to never doompost on my Twitter account I'm nuking all of them

anyways when I wake up in 4 hours I'm gonna feel fine again and pretend nothing's happened

sometimes I wanna express my feelings to the wider public like on Twitter but no one likes listening to what my brittle feeling has to say and there's enough negativity as is in the world. and it's just like, "ok what's there to say?" there's nothing people can say and it just maddens everyone

I want to talk to someone about it but I can't - the only place I can is on the internet to complete strangers when my brain feels like it.