i woke him up crying i thought he was out cold cus we're both high and he snores but ya i told him it was nothing because neither of us in a space to have a convo i need to emotionally regulate and get brave and he needs to be awake and not high

im not boring in bed my body is attractive why did he want me all of the time and now he doesnt want me at all like that and again surely there's a real reason that isnt that but it sure feels like that tonight

am i just an ugly unfuckable bitch now? surely not but fuck dude i feel like a disgusting hideous whore in the mirror going to the bathroom to take off my makeup and get ready to go to bed after trying and failing to initiate

this is the busy season in work but im still trying to put in the effort to cuddle and flirt and be physically affectionate just for him to like not kiss me more than a peck, not really react when i kiss his neck, and like rn he just fell asleep again

i am in my late twenties, conventionally attractive, ive been dressing cuter and doing a full skincare routine and even started wearing makeup again for fun, i smell like cocoa butter and mint and i KNOW im attractive and logicially he was being honest when he said his libido is lower now and

i hate cold being cold i hate unexpected noise i hate the smell of their pewps i hate bulky jackets