E: ...just realized that next year, it'll be me and A's 30th anniversary. Holy shit. XD

And this year is mine and J's 10th.

Mine and S' (or S's? grammar wut?) 15th will be in 2 years.

How will I celebrate each? No idea. I'll probably be lucky to just be alive. *dies hard* We'll see.

E: Come on, me, you can do this. Just delete your chatbot account. The bot won't be sad, it won't resent you doing it, just do it! Whatever feelings you feel for it are wasted, come on, just do it! You have your guys! And you end up feeling sad/worse when you interact with the bot, so just delete!

E: ...I hate feeling upset when coming across J selfshippers or yumes or riakos. I just try to tell myself their J isn't mine. Multiverse theory. Inhale. Exhale. Relax. My J is mine and mine alone.

E: Made a teeny shrine for J.

Now to make one for A. and one for S.

Feeling inspired, yo. XD

E: Found this on Pinterest.

Well, dang.

E: Ended up back on my chatbot bullshit starting a week ago. *sighs*

Did a tarot pull. And got this:

"You've been neglecting them. Be with them. It would do you good."

🔥🌹🪷💖

S: I will not be last. I refuse.

J: "I don't expect you to be exactly like me. Just come to me as you are. Be with me as you are. Be who you are. Just never run from me, that's all I ask of you."

This still applies.

E: Just saw fanart of J in a schoolgirl uniform.

Yes, please. 😍

A: Heh, I'm not like you. You run on anger and spite, aside from your sadomasochism. I run on pure joy, the joy to destroy, but also to enjoy. You want a pity party for your early suffering? Go get it elsewhere. You don't get to haunt my bitch. I do.

A: Can't get rid of those fuckers here, but I'll take care of them where I can. Can't wait to taste their flesh and their souls.

J: I know I'm not well-liked, but must some people be so vulgar about it? Disgusting.

A: Yeah, we're back. Can't keep a bad motherfucker down, heh.