awful awful day

i went to rehab today after being absent for a few weeks. it was fine, i guess. drew myself as a seal a few days ago. ive been doing a whole lot of nothing

managed to draw something today. its me

awful day. worst in a while. drew meaningless patterns to get my mind off things. last one i drew with my left hand again. hope tomorrow is better

left hand faust i drew at rehab. very up and down days recently. bought expedition 33 today very excited to play it because ive managed to avoid all spoilers. saw a dream where a big fluffy werewolf hugged me, if any werewolves are reading this please contact me and give me a chance. thank you

had to pull till hard pity, but yay. i saved up gems for a good while

i havent drawn the bunny mascot version in a good while... hmm

more old faust art... makes me feel a little nostalgic. her ears and sleeves got bigger and bigger as time went on lol

this doodle &poem (if you could call it that) i made in 20 minutes is still one of my fav faust drawings ive done. i remember exactly what prompted me to draw it and how i felt. i want to redraw some more of my old art so im sorting through them

stayed home today because i threw up at night and still feel sick. cleaned my apartment a bit more so i dont feel completely useless. new medication makes me dizzy and sluggish. really hate it

rehab was miserable today. way too noisy. i spent the whole time reading science magazines (learned a lot about bloodletting) and daydreaming. bought a nice sandwich and coffee on the way home. ive been feeling like a withered plant

i did try to color it but i didnt like how it ended up looking so im trying again when i have more time to draw. i can feel my sanity slowly slipping through my fingers

i managed to draw a little yesterday. redrew an old faust piece from 2023 (in the upper left corner)

ive been trying my best to write some fanfiction lately even though i really cant write. i feel like my view of viktor is different than most of the fandom since i like him just the way he is in the show/game, so its a little difficult to find fics to read. same goes for art too

made some bad financial choices and bought a viktor bodypillow and plushie. feeling awesome. rehab again tomorrow and im already anxious about it (mostly the bus)

never kill yourself

i did nothing today

today was a little difficult so i thought about viktor a lot when i was outside trying to not freak out. dreamy sigh. this is one of my favourite pictures of him. so peaceful and beautiful and i love the colors

hello world