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bananafishfields.bsky.social
@bananafishfields.bsky.social
this is essentially my digital diary
Ah another long day of making bad financial decisions
December 8, 2025 at 4:28 AM
I love being able to cook myself good food
November 30, 2025 at 11:59 PM
Note to self: do not stay at your parent's house for more than two days in a row. The teenage depression will start to seep back into your brain. The house will feel like a prison. You will desperately miss your space and your cats.
November 30, 2025 at 3:37 AM
I'm tired of waking up in fear. The initial dread of facing you, the realization that I'm on my own, the moment of relief, and then the lingering anxiety that settles into my days.
November 30, 2025 at 1:46 AM
You keep haunting my dreams. I hate how long it's taking to escape your ghost
November 30, 2025 at 1:41 AM
Despite being sad, I am beyond grateful to not be stressing over someone's shitty son
November 27, 2025 at 6:27 AM
This is my first holiday season without a partner in over 10 years. It's liberating, but I also feel so lonely. I didn't realize it until today as I was driving to my parents. I just want to cry. I feel empty.
November 27, 2025 at 6:21 AM
The wine and joint combo didn't fill the void like I wanted it to
November 27, 2025 at 6:13 AM
Girl drink that bottle of wine on a Monday night. You deserve it. Better yet, follow it up with a joint. You. Deserve. It!!!
November 25, 2025 at 1:42 AM
Tonight I am sad
November 13, 2025 at 4:21 AM
Every single sound i hear outside my window as I'm laying in bed is a personal attack on the sleep I'm trying to get. Why the fuck don't I live in the middle of no where yet
November 7, 2025 at 4:18 AM
Why did I give so much to so many undeserving people. It feels like I fed my soul to the void
October 25, 2025 at 3:54 AM
Jesus christ I just want to pour my love into someone that's worthy
October 22, 2025 at 4:57 AM
I can't believe how much better my life has gotten. I'm so scared it will get that bad again.
October 20, 2025 at 3:00 AM
You made my life so miserable
October 20, 2025 at 2:58 AM
All I tried to do was make your life better and you punished me for it
October 20, 2025 at 2:58 AM
It's hard to deny the ptsd when my nightmares consist of what used to be our day to day life.
October 20, 2025 at 2:55 AM
I feel like i was robbed of my 20s. Nearing 30 and I'm so traumatized. I blame men and the government. Every full moon i also blame my mother.
October 16, 2025 at 2:51 AM
I needed to touch grass. I feel better. It's easier to drown you out when I'm outside.
October 4, 2025 at 10:10 PM
My soul hurts. My spirit feels siphoned. Recovering from you is exhausting. You are such a grand reminder that life isn't fair. I didn't deserve what I endured.
October 4, 2025 at 1:37 AM
I feel haunted by someone who's still alive
October 4, 2025 at 1:31 AM
Sometimes 5'7 is just too tall. I need to be closer to the ground. 5'7 is too high up here. Too dangerous
October 4, 2025 at 1:29 AM
I don't understand how you can still be so suffocating despite the distance
October 1, 2025 at 10:16 PM
I'm so much happier. I wish you would take care of yourself. I wish I had never gotten involved in your life.
September 30, 2025 at 9:43 PM
4 years ago today I got into my first car accident. Car totalled. Stitches needed on my thumb, but otherwise okay. I experienced true shock for the first time. Had no idea what was going on or what happened for a good 5 minutes. You were annoyed that you had to pick me up. You made it worse
September 24, 2025 at 1:23 AM