i went into such a deep dive about why this ALWAYS HAPPENS last month. when my meds only KINDA worked. now im just back to bed rotting so like. great. awesome.

if theres one thing that will always motivate me, its gonna be antisocial spite. 🙌

my (condensed) thought process: oh that would help more than the dot journal im using. holy shit thats expensive. i think my pcs gonna be sidelined soon i dont need this. oh this notebook has multiple character sheets. ok fuck it add to cart.

i have 3 birthdays coming up within 2 months and i managed to buy 1 gift before the tariffs fucked everything up but now im close to ripping out my own hair

and whenever we had to pick a new day bc scheduling issues (of multiple people, not me this time), our dm was like "ok rachael which days do u have off?" LIKE???