saturns moon
@beanbxnes.bsky.social
eldritch/horror|daughter of the cosmos|cybernetic achievement
can i just be loved by someone as much as i love them?? or am i just an experience to make you feel good for a while before you disregard me like im the shit under ur shoe??
February 17, 2026 at 3:14 AM
can i just be loved by someone as much as i love them?? or am i just an experience to make you feel good for a while before you disregard me like im the shit under ur shoe??
wow, how pathetic of a loser am i, i feel so stupid,
i feel like a fucking fool, i’m so utterly unlovable
i feel like a fucking fool, i’m so utterly unlovable
February 11, 2026 at 1:58 PM
wow, how pathetic of a loser am i, i feel so stupid,
i feel like a fucking fool, i’m so utterly unlovable
i feel like a fucking fool, i’m so utterly unlovable
my whole body itches
February 10, 2026 at 1:09 PM
my whole body itches
i should just check out
February 10, 2026 at 11:18 AM
i should just check out
watching the clock like a fucking psycho
January 30, 2026 at 5:03 PM
watching the clock like a fucking psycho
yknow what!?! i’ll eat a full jean fucking jacket buttons and all If this day manages to get any worse, AND I DONT THINK IT CAN SO IF IT DOES ILL EAT IT WITH NO FUCKING CHASER
January 16, 2026 at 12:31 AM
yknow what!?! i’ll eat a full jean fucking jacket buttons and all If this day manages to get any worse, AND I DONT THINK IT CAN SO IF IT DOES ILL EAT IT WITH NO FUCKING CHASER
my head is fucking killing me i’m so stressed out i literally feel ill
January 9, 2026 at 1:53 AM
my head is fucking killing me i’m so stressed out i literally feel ill
i wish u would just text me
December 22, 2025 at 4:41 PM
i wish u would just text me
i’m starting to feel like everyone around me has to walk on eggshells and i hate myself for it, like im never talking again to any one ever. please spare yourself the horrid chaos of ever having to know me and my inability to be a normal functioning person.
December 10, 2025 at 6:14 PM
i’m starting to feel like everyone around me has to walk on eggshells and i hate myself for it, like im never talking again to any one ever. please spare yourself the horrid chaos of ever having to know me and my inability to be a normal functioning person.
i don’t deserve to have people in my life bc i can’t even care for them the way they need or should be treated. im the worst type of person
December 10, 2025 at 2:42 AM
i don’t deserve to have people in my life bc i can’t even care for them the way they need or should be treated. im the worst type of person
it genuinely feels like every single person is mad at me right now and idk what to do i hate myself
December 10, 2025 at 2:01 AM
it genuinely feels like every single person is mad at me right now and idk what to do i hate myself
into the hole to rot i go
December 10, 2025 at 1:57 AM
into the hole to rot i go
i am so extremely close to calling it quits. i’m so exhausted
December 6, 2025 at 7:55 PM
i am so extremely close to calling it quits. i’m so exhausted
of all of the selfish things. all of the things i could just shut my mouth and keep to myself. why can’t i stop.. im being greedy, and acting selfish bc i have no reason to get such euphoria talking about the things i want when i know you don’t want them too.
November 17, 2025 at 8:10 PM
of all of the selfish things. all of the things i could just shut my mouth and keep to myself. why can’t i stop.. im being greedy, and acting selfish bc i have no reason to get such euphoria talking about the things i want when i know you don’t want them too.
my girl- isabel larosa 🖤
November 14, 2025 at 3:45 PM
my girl- isabel larosa 🖤
idk why i’m so petrified or afraid, im at a loss. i’ve just been staring at my screen with 8 drafted messages and none of them seem good enough. im almost tempted to just say i miss you..
November 12, 2025 at 5:25 PM
idk why i’m so petrified or afraid, im at a loss. i’ve just been staring at my screen with 8 drafted messages and none of them seem good enough. im almost tempted to just say i miss you..
i can’t stand it anymore i think im gonna just bite the bullet and be brave
November 12, 2025 at 3:52 PM
i can’t stand it anymore i think im gonna just bite the bullet and be brave
idk what to do. idk idk my mom is stressing my tf our guys, not in a bad way she’s actually being so helpful but that is also stressing me out AGAHAHHEVDJS i feel so many things rn idk what to do anymore i literally feel ill thinking about it all i hate what this fucking dumb man did to my life…
November 11, 2025 at 3:56 PM
idk what to do. idk idk my mom is stressing my tf our guys, not in a bad way she’s actually being so helpful but that is also stressing me out AGAHAHHEVDJS i feel so many things rn idk what to do anymore i literally feel ill thinking about it all i hate what this fucking dumb man did to my life…
i want to go home, i hate it here, i hate my apartment, i hate my living situation, i hate who i let live with me, i hate how they make me feel, i want to go home and i want to rest
November 11, 2025 at 3:43 PM
i want to go home, i hate it here, i hate my apartment, i hate my living situation, i hate who i let live with me, i hate how they make me feel, i want to go home and i want to rest
i want to text you, and check on you and see how you are, but idk how to, or what to say, or if i’m even allowed to talk rn. i hope you’re okay. i hope we can talk soon
November 11, 2025 at 1:11 PM
i want to text you, and check on you and see how you are, but idk how to, or what to say, or if i’m even allowed to talk rn. i hope you’re okay. i hope we can talk soon
i wake up, clock in, immediately get a migraine that leads to anxiety that stresses me out so badly i throw up and then work sends me home bc im more of an extra chore than i am help. i’m a worthless fucking sack of bricks dude
November 10, 2025 at 12:26 PM
i wake up, clock in, immediately get a migraine that leads to anxiety that stresses me out so badly i throw up and then work sends me home bc im more of an extra chore than i am help. i’m a worthless fucking sack of bricks dude
thinking about this perf pour and wanting another 😭😭
November 9, 2025 at 1:00 AM
thinking about this perf pour and wanting another 😭😭
idk how long i can keep pretending to care im just so tired and exhausted over all of this i want to check out and give up i don’t care anymore i really dont
November 6, 2025 at 1:10 PM
idk how long i can keep pretending to care im just so tired and exhausted over all of this i want to check out and give up i don’t care anymore i really dont
FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK I HATE THIS I HATE THIS I FUCKING HATE THIS IM GONNA SCREAM I WANT TO RIP MY FUCKING SKIN OFF
November 5, 2025 at 6:19 PM
FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK I HATE THIS I HATE THIS I FUCKING HATE THIS IM GONNA SCREAM I WANT TO RIP MY FUCKING SKIN OFF