yeah i can barely stay awake afterward 😭 it was especially bad today bc i was drenched in sweat coming out into the parking lot where it was windy & snowing so i felt like i came out of a frozen lake

realized i've only had a protein smoothie to eat too. free me from this zoom call so i can get dinner.

twbb one of my all time films yippee

thankfully i was not socialized to think women aren't people so there's really no danger of that. and you're right! but i really do need an irl support system & i just haven't had that ever

the bad feelings are definitely amplified by all the effort thay goes into trying :(

it really takes so much time and energy

i guarantee i have tried or am trying every single piece of advice that people give for getting out of this situation, it's just that none of it works when you're older than 25 apparently