jess
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i feel like im just spending my whole life fighting urges and cravings. why am i so big and greedy im literally thinking of food and alc All the time. also why cant i just do things in moderation
February 10, 2026 at 4:30 AM
i feel like im just spending my whole life fighting urges and cravings. why am i so big and greedy im literally thinking of food and alc All the time. also why cant i just do things in moderation
sorry to disappoint everyone but im just a wannarexic at the end of the day
February 10, 2026 at 2:22 AM
sorry to disappoint everyone but im just a wannarexic at the end of the day
ty j@ckie chan ig we r twins now i needed to wake up to this news. also i still dont have a fever so i think the sore throat is also concerta induced ✌️🤪👍 yay..
February 9, 2026 at 9:59 PM
ty j@ckie chan ig we r twins now i needed to wake up to this news. also i still dont have a fever so i think the sore throat is also concerta induced ✌️🤪👍 yay..
ooh new hamlet… more like rizz ahmed … i am sorry
February 9, 2026 at 3:12 AM
ooh new hamlet… more like rizz ahmed … i am sorry
its so over 1 woke up w a sore throat worse than ln even tho i barely even leave the house 2 sleep paralysis had me screaming 3 missed my psych appointment 4 didnt take my concerta bc fuck everything atp ❤️
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February 9, 2026 at 2:49 AM
its so over 1 woke up w a sore throat worse than ln even tho i barely even leave the house 2 sleep paralysis had me screaming 3 missed my psych appointment 4 didnt take my concerta bc fuck everything atp ❤️
is my whole life gonna be like this lol haha . cool
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February 8, 2026 at 2:38 PM
is my whole life gonna be like this lol haha . cool
ik if i dont wash my hair rn ill hate myself tmrw and feel disgusting in fact i alr feel disgusting but i Cant tn. why not let the self hate prosper idc (i do but i have to shower anyway if i leave the house so ill just wait its Fine)
February 8, 2026 at 2:34 PM
ik if i dont wash my hair rn ill hate myself tmrw and feel disgusting in fact i alr feel disgusting but i Cant tn. why not let the self hate prosper idc (i do but i have to shower anyway if i leave the house so ill just wait its Fine)
had 900+ cals worth of cheesecake
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February 8, 2026 at 6:28 AM
had 900+ cals worth of cheesecake
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i think i finally know what type of cat my cat is (torbie) that explains the tortitude lol i didnt know there was a word for it
February 8, 2026 at 2:25 AM
i think i finally know what type of cat my cat is (torbie) that explains the tortitude lol i didnt know there was a word for it
Finally pooped but the scale still went up fuck my psychiatrist (ik its not his fault…) ughhhhhhhh
February 8, 2026 at 2:23 AM
Finally pooped but the scale still went up fuck my psychiatrist (ik its not his fault…) ughhhhhhhh
still no bm im gonna kms
February 7, 2026 at 8:30 AM
still no bm im gonna kms
got a text saying i gotta pay the interest for my debt
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February 6, 2026 at 3:34 AM
got a text saying i gotta pay the interest for my debt
maybe i was supposed to stay on abilify too like wait it out a few more weeks to see if the constipation went away but i immediately freaked out bc i felt like i would gain. the other issue was they also found several breast lumps around the same time but its unclear whether that was a coincidence
February 6, 2026 at 3:29 AM
maybe i was supposed to stay on abilify too like wait it out a few more weeks to see if the constipation went away but i immediately freaked out bc i felt like i would gain. the other issue was they also found several breast lumps around the same time but its unclear whether that was a coincidence
the constipation is freaking me out bc its keeping me bloated and sensory wise makes me panic bc pants feel tighter like when you gain weight. what if i successfully eat less but still dont lose bc i cant fucking poop. like what if cico doesnt matter even if i eat less
February 5, 2026 at 10:59 AM
the constipation is freaking me out bc its keeping me bloated and sensory wise makes me panic bc pants feel tighter like when you gain weight. what if i successfully eat less but still dont lose bc i cant fucking poop. like what if cico doesnt matter even if i eat less
has anyone been on concerta and experienced really bad stomach pain and constipation? im only on day 3 do the side effects go away
February 5, 2026 at 2:43 AM
has anyone been on concerta and experienced really bad stomach pain and constipation? im only on day 3 do the side effects go away
i just have to be normal tmrw and then the weeks finally over
February 4, 2026 at 2:23 PM
i just have to be normal tmrw and then the weeks finally over
aside from all my fuckups and the mess im in i feel kind of… alright? ik ill get sad and weird again at night but the si is quieter than its been for a while and i have more energy
February 4, 2026 at 6:58 AM
aside from all my fuckups and the mess im in i feel kind of… alright? ik ill get sad and weird again at night but the si is quieter than its been for a while and i have more energy
i fucked up a prof insisted on buying us lunch and i should have just told him im working WHICH I AM idk what is genuinely pathologically wrong w me im so terrified of idek saying no?? letting ppl down? idk wtf it is but its a Problem. also i cant stop yapping my mind is going a mile a minute and
February 3, 2026 at 3:39 PM
i fucked up a prof insisted on buying us lunch and i should have just told him im working WHICH I AM idk what is genuinely pathologically wrong w me im so terrified of idek saying no?? letting ppl down? idk wtf it is but its a Problem. also i cant stop yapping my mind is going a mile a minute and
ive been too flippant abt alcohol in general bc i didnt even know abt the 123 rule or like how u shoul only have like one cocktail per hour why were bartenders letting me drink like four drinks in 30min 😭😭😭 anyway im getting sober fr fr im serious
February 3, 2026 at 9:51 AM
ive been too flippant abt alcohol in general bc i didnt even know abt the 123 rule or like how u shoul only have like one cocktail per hour why were bartenders letting me drink like four drinks in 30min 😭😭😭 anyway im getting sober fr fr im serious
my coping mechanisms really turned into the main problem huh
February 3, 2026 at 6:44 AM
my coping mechanisms really turned into the main problem huh
threw up like seven times my throat is burning im still bloated and i looked so fat in the bathroom mirror. mom also heard me and i couldnt tell her its bc of the binging and the drinking. one of these days my body is finally going to give up on me or im gonna kms. i can't do this anymore. i won't
February 3, 2026 at 6:37 AM
threw up like seven times my throat is burning im still bloated and i looked so fat in the bathroom mirror. mom also heard me and i couldnt tell her its bc of the binging and the drinking. one of these days my body is finally going to give up on me or im gonna kms. i can't do this anymore. i won't
i never wanna be hungover again. cannot do this anymore
February 3, 2026 at 5:11 AM
i never wanna be hungover again. cannot do this anymore
also idk why i was like shocked? that i found out i apparently have adhd girl why else would he have put you on adhd meds 😭😭😭 and why didnt i just ask him when he did it (i think it was that busy day when he was really out of it so i didnt say anything help) i finally asked him Yesterday if he
February 3, 2026 at 5:09 AM
also idk why i was like shocked? that i found out i apparently have adhd girl why else would he have put you on adhd meds 😭😭😭 and why didnt i just ask him when he did it (i think it was that busy day when he was really out of it so i didnt say anything help) i finally asked him Yesterday if he