You know what’s infuriating? Needing to email your MP about so many things but not wanting to look like that constituent who complains all the time but there are numerous issues that need addressing because they directly impact me and loved ones and I’m stressed out about getting it wrong.

Current mood:

And this doesn’t even begin to touch on the rest of everything.

Things that have been fucked completely in the last few weeks:

The adoption and special guardianship support fund (down from a 7k per year per child to 3k)

Disability benefits.

Trans, intersex and non stereotypically looking women who use public changing and/or toileting spaces.

Using alcohol to numb my brain and make today less present in my mind. Not healthy but I need some sort of something tonight. I’m so angry.

When you’re asthmatic, wheezing and coughing but can’t be arsed to get up to find your inhaler.

once I was at the ophthalmologist and he was checking my eyes and how I saw colors and he said “the thing about biology is nature doesn’t really do binaries, only spectrums” and I think about that a lot

Called the doctors to ask about blood results and the receptionist must be new. Started by talking to me on mute so I couldn’t hear her then after we spoke, she thought she put the phone down and I heard, “how dya even pronounced that Mx because they don’t want to be a Mrs or Mr.”

5 of my 11 blood test results are in and they’re allll normal so far. Fatigue is worse than ever. Awesome

It has made me realise why I need the two businesses though. I was soooo fidgety by the end of my day today.

Day 2 of an intensive driving course and I’m knackered. Only another 9 to go!!

When you have a log burner and your wife brings you a gift home…

Spent some time tidying the garden and I’m on the edge of nausea again. I really hope the blood tests figure out what’s happening because this is bullshit.

Morning so far….filling in pip form for our eldest kid. Genuinely worried about it because he needs it and the way things are at the minute, it’s debatable whether or not he’ll have it awarded and the fight to get it will be long and exhausting.

My kids have taken to consistently mouth breathing and loud chewing/making mouth noises whilst eating. I cannot.

When you have the coil and it’s proven to not be working but there’s no one available in my health group who is qualified to change and now I’m getting lots of symptoms and the thought of me getting a cycle back after 15+ years is fucking terrifying. Oh and we have a massive family history of gynae

Not even sure I remember how to this anymore but I’m back…for as long as I can be arsed.