Some more stuff of mine. I’ll always be proud of the things I have managed to create, regardless of whatever happens.

Really sorry this happened to you. Absolutely despicable on their part.

Oh, what in the fuck is this.

I’m so glad I stopped using that site long ago, fuck this sludge.

Oh wow, this is so cute! Looks wonderful!

The original/reference. Aside from the smaller proportions, this is a much cleaner frame of reference, so if you ever go to draw her, I’d recommend the bigger proportions, with the cleaner details here (namely the skull and shutter shades looking better here.)

Yeah, Christmas can be a lot, when it‘s something you need to juggle on top of other problems. This might be something I’m about to learn firsthand, too.

In any case, I hope everything will turn out okay. There’s no shame in taking that time for your own sake.

It’s why my art will likely be very sporadic for the foreseeable future. It’s just a very tough, tricky situation. As much as I love my OCs, and seeing art of them, it’s unfortunately not very high on the list of pressing matters for me.

That’s kind of the best explanation I have for all this.

That’s not sustainable, obviously. I know this, nor is it healthy for all the adversity I am dealing with. So it creates this big dilemma for me. I know that I should be focusing much more on my underlying problems currently. But a big part of what makes me happy is just not that feasible now.

Considering how much I love my OCs, it feeds more into me wanting to get things done, but it also just creates some unintended issues. My OCs truly make me happy, and therefore I feel this need to keep drawing them to keep that happiness. So I want to keep drawing them, never leaving time.

So when I go to do a drawing, I try my best to get it done during that session. It leads to me stressing over finer details of the drawing. Sometimes it just prevents me from getting going. So whenever I do get that motivation, I need to make it count before it fades away.

You see, I have this habit where when I start to do something, I want to see it through and complete it before I move onto something else. If I stop midway through, and put the rest of it to another day, that makes it likely my motivation could die, or a mental high could go down.