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Anyway rant over, I think i just have a constant chance right now to think the wrong thing and feel like I should drive my life into the ground.
Not that I actually will but the idea that it's an option feels like more control than anything else so it's a little comforting.
Not that I actually will but the idea that it's an option feels like more control than anything else so it's a little comforting.
February 2, 2026 at 5:22 AM
Anyway rant over, I think i just have a constant chance right now to think the wrong thing and feel like I should drive my life into the ground.
Not that I actually will but the idea that it's an option feels like more control than anything else so it's a little comforting.
Not that I actually will but the idea that it's an option feels like more control than anything else so it's a little comforting.
I just can't image a world where I don't care, where I just have the space to be only happy for her.
I'll get better, I know I will, but trying to accept that feels like accepting a part of me is dying first, before the rest. I guess I'll have to figure out how to deal with that as it happens.
I'll get better, I know I will, but trying to accept that feels like accepting a part of me is dying first, before the rest. I guess I'll have to figure out how to deal with that as it happens.
February 2, 2026 at 5:22 AM
I just can't image a world where I don't care, where I just have the space to be only happy for her.
I'll get better, I know I will, but trying to accept that feels like accepting a part of me is dying first, before the rest. I guess I'll have to figure out how to deal with that as it happens.
I'll get better, I know I will, but trying to accept that feels like accepting a part of me is dying first, before the rest. I guess I'll have to figure out how to deal with that as it happens.
I just don't know what to do when it all dries over. Rationally I know I'll have to stop caring one day, you just can't function like this.
But those parts of me are real right now, if i get better it means I lose them.
But those parts of me are real right now, if i get better it means I lose them.
February 2, 2026 at 5:22 AM
I just don't know what to do when it all dries over. Rationally I know I'll have to stop caring one day, you just can't function like this.
But those parts of me are real right now, if i get better it means I lose them.
But those parts of me are real right now, if i get better it means I lose them.
Rationalising to myself that inevitably, one day I'll feel okay about everything is kinda scary. Right now I still feel sick about it whenever I spend too long thinking about it.
That sick feeling is part of me, packing the gaps in my sense of self.
That sick feeling is part of me, packing the gaps in my sense of self.
February 2, 2026 at 5:22 AM
Rationalising to myself that inevitably, one day I'll feel okay about everything is kinda scary. Right now I still feel sick about it whenever I spend too long thinking about it.
That sick feeling is part of me, packing the gaps in my sense of self.
That sick feeling is part of me, packing the gaps in my sense of self.
I mean she's kinda right i am planning to date this one kinda guy i know
January 13, 2026 at 2:19 PM
I mean she's kinda right i am planning to date this one kinda guy i know
Let's find someone to hate for next year
December 25, 2025 at 9:43 AM
Let's find someone to hate for next year
Please don't, I love you too much
September 24, 2025 at 8:24 AM
Please don't, I love you too much
Anyways, sorry about heavy stuff, I will try and figure out why I feel alone despite having incredible friends 👍👍👍
July 6, 2025 at 4:57 PM
Anyways, sorry about heavy stuff, I will try and figure out why I feel alone despite having incredible friends 👍👍👍
Hell, the reason I'm able to be more open on here than I am on call is in part because there's a chance nobody will ever read what I'm typing. It's almost like I can use the belief that my friends don't care about me to my benefit(?)
July 6, 2025 at 4:55 PM
Hell, the reason I'm able to be more open on here than I am on call is in part because there's a chance nobody will ever read what I'm typing. It's almost like I can use the belief that my friends don't care about me to my benefit(?)
I already feel like I can be emotionally draining/demanding to talk to so it makes it difficult to reach out to others because I don't want my insecurities to be a point of stress for others, which feels kind of ironic due to some of my more stressed "episodes".
July 6, 2025 at 4:52 PM
I already feel like I can be emotionally draining/demanding to talk to so it makes it difficult to reach out to others because I don't want my insecurities to be a point of stress for others, which feels kind of ironic due to some of my more stressed "episodes".
Sometimes I just feel so isolated and alone I can't breathe, even when I'm around people, so that kinda sucks because I truly can't think of a way for it to be solved apart from me just getting over it?
July 6, 2025 at 4:51 PM
Sometimes I just feel so isolated and alone I can't breathe, even when I'm around people, so that kinda sucks because I truly can't think of a way for it to be solved apart from me just getting over it?
The juice that makes you think people hate you. Not on yall to sort with I'm trying to get better about it.
July 6, 2025 at 4:34 PM
The juice that makes you think people hate you. Not on yall to sort with I'm trying to get better about it.
I literally don't think I could that shit would not be good for me
July 6, 2025 at 10:16 AM
I literally don't think I could that shit would not be good for me
Sorry I thought it would be funny and was having what I could best describe as an episode I drank the juice that makes you panic attack
July 6, 2025 at 10:16 AM
Sorry I thought it would be funny and was having what I could best describe as an episode I drank the juice that makes you panic attack
On god thought this was about love death and robots.
June 28, 2025 at 8:13 AM
On god thought this was about love death and robots.